→Teenage dream, ♠

~.~.~.~

2011-06-13T09:00:00.002+08:00

Million years since I blogged.
Hahahahahaha.

I've been sad and all troubled.
Aiya, since when am I not? LOL.

Kay bye.

Gone.

2011-04-13T00:55:00.002+08:00

Heartaching likag6ex.
I deactivated my facebook, I switched my phone off.
I'm falling apart so badly.
I only want to be alone.

Gone.

2011-03-16T11:21:00.002+08:00

Heyyy guys.
It's been a month!

Alot things happened as usual.
I'm so lazy to explain.

And, man, I'm vexed, again.
Like as usual...
But this time round, about friendship stuffs.

Should I move on? Should I not?

And I've been really busy studying.
Everyday wake up, tuition, 4 - 6 hours.
Shag.

Ohwell, maybe it's good for me? Hahahaha.
Think far, Clare.
(:

Twitter will help you alot of you're a stalker of mine.
<3

(:

2011-02-18T23:53:00.002+08:00

It's been manymany days since I last updated.

So many things happened.

And I grew up so much.
Over the months, the days.
The every second that I lived.

I fell, and I thought I was never gna stand up anymore.
Until my friends appeared, with their words of encouragement.
Not only that, the actions, the, everything.
They tried ways and means to make me laugh, ensure that I'm fine.
This kinda friends, WHERE FIND!??!?!
:D

It was fate.
Think back, rewinding back to 9 months ago.
Everything was just normal.
Until I gbl, kpo.
Then things started.
And now, though I'm all broken, bruised and heartless,
I'ma happy kid! :D

Sometimes I feel like a kid.
I throw tantrums, and people will try to make me laugh.
Give me lollipops! LOL ( Ahqi did when I was sad )
Is like, I can't possibly waste their effort tio bo?
So I tryyyyyyyy hard to be happy! :D

That's all la.
Mainly safra life.
Pool, talk cock sing song play mahjong, guo tie, blabla.
Lika awesome life please.
If only I had more money LOL.

I've grown up, alot la.
But I'm still a kid... Cuz I'm still childish HEHEHE.
Outer layer old, inner layer must stay young! ^^

That's all ah! BYE!

---

How long has it been? I lost count.
I still miss you to bits.
Days I'd just call you up, find some rubbish topic or questions and ask you...
Just to hear your voice, then kup.
It's like, when will I ever get over the fact that, you're gone?
No, actually I already did.
Just that, idk, nevermind.
-.-

K whatever.
Bye.

---

I really miss seeing you, and miss your voice.
Can you..... Urgh, forget it, you can't.

I miss you.

2011-02-05T14:08:00.002+08:00

Hey there darlie dear.

I miss you listening to all my xenoarchaelogy rubbish.
I miss you being interested in doctor who with me.
I miss you having this shitassweirdawesome connection with me.
I miss you having the same fucking frequency as me.
I miss you and I having a conversation that nobody’d ever understand.
I miss you listening to the songs I listen to and thinks that they’re nice.
I miss you chatting about the world and everything in the universe.
I miss you being there for me, laughing with me over my silly jokes.
I miss you being the one and only one that knows me so well and the best.
I miss you for everything we’ve, and have done together.

I miss your presence, and everything.

I wonder if you forgot about me, you best damn thing ever.

Video!

2011-01-31T09:48:00.001+08:00

I made a video.
Spent hours on it.

Anyway, been super long since I updated my blog LOL.
Same life loh.
Study, slack, kbox, pool, talk cock sing song.
Hahaha.

Going market soon...
I didn't sleep -_-

And I'll be damn busy the coming week.
Sianz!

CNY coming, means $$$ coming, hohoho.
Gamble ah!

HENG HENG AH, HUAT LAAAAA~

Hah.

2011-01-12T18:24:00.002+08:00

It's been 10 days since I last updated my blog.

I went out over the weekends.
Am fucking broke.
I laughed alot when I'm out.
I did my work at home.
My sim card is spoilt.
I'm using my spare number now.
And um.

I'm not exactly happy.
I'm stressed up.
I'm um, irritated almost all the time.
And... I'M FEELING SO FLY LIKA G 6IX~

I love life to bits.
But I hate how it hurts.

New year?

2011-01-02T00:54:00.004+08:00

Hey guys,
It's 2011 already.

I believe everyone felt like,
"Woahhh, 2010 flew by really fast."
Lots of things happened during 2010.
To everyone around me, and myself as well.
It's been awesome, sad, but still, good experiences.

Went through alot these few years,
I learnt alot, I grew up alot.
Which is good, I suppose? Haha.

I'm addicted to afew songs recently..

Here's one of them.
I found it in my phone yesterday, no idea how it got into my phone.
LOL.

Went over Kimtian ton with Akl, sis, susu, daryl and darren bro.
Ahqi and Gera Huiyi! came over for awhile as well.

Funny thing is,
I spotted a police car, so we all went into weewee's house.
Weewee had no keys, then she banged her house door and went like,
'OPEN THE DOORRRR, OPEN THE DOORR!!! GOT MATA!!!!!!!!!'

HAHAHAHHAA.
Awhile, Me, aj, daryl and darren got chased out by weewee's ahma.
POWER TO THE GUDIGA!!!! ROFL.

Slacked outside blabla.
Daryl went home.

Aj, D and me went over some place for food.
Awhile, Aj's dad came over.
Chatted and stuffs, then he tompang us over to commonwealth.
Waited until 545am w darren, thinking first train will be here.
End up it's public holiday!?!?!?#!@$#!#!@%@!#

Waited alone until 613am T.T
Went home, blabla, slept at 8plus 9plus in the morning.
Took meds and sleeping pills.
So slept until 8pm.
HEHEHEHEHE.
Then akl called and chatted w me, so I woke.
Awesome sleep I had, rested so much, heh heh!

Another song that I wna share,
Awesome song, LOL.
But it's chineseeeeeee~ :D

Anyway, quite afew days back,
Tonned with weewee, aj and lileng.
Was at purmei.
Then blablabla, weewee had to go home.
Then awhile, aj went home. -.-
Leave me and lileng alone LOL.
So walked over to lower delta, then puay cab $1 go Kimtian.
Stayed at weewee house with lileng.
All went to sleep at 3plus.
I used computer until 6plus.
Then left w lileng.

Almost fainted on the train, had badbadbad fainting spells.
Went home, had slight fever.
Woke with a high fever.
Fever for 2 full days plus abit :l

40 degree celsius was my highest temp.
Went to the doctor and got some meds, then felt better.
Hoho. ^^

I love weewee sis, always so nice.
Say if I kena pangseh during ton sessions,
Can go her house stay until morning.
Awww sis, muax! HAHAHA.

Okay anw.
Another few songs.

This song is fucking meaningful omfg.

This, is, we'll be a dream.
(:

Do you remmeber the nights,
We stayed up just laughing~
Smiling for hours, at anything~

Hahaha, lalala.

Anyway,
Have I ever told you guys?
I fucking love Christina Grimmie.
She's cute, funny, beautiful, sharp and, omfg.
Her voice, her accent, her singing, her eyes, her hair.
Her sense of fashion, and everything.
Love of my life.

I'm sorry, I know I happen to have lots of 'love of my life' HAHAHA.
xD

Did I mention?
Grenade right,
Until now, I've seen and heard quite afew covers.
The nicer ones were still from guys.
I guess that song still suits a guy's voice more..
Like.. Guy's voice, but high pitch? LOL.
Idk how to say, but ohwell.
Not that girls' version ain't nice, but it doesn't bring out the song's essence?
LOL.
Okay nevermind~~~~~

Christina Grimmie's version of Grenade.
She modified some parts, it's good.
But I still love Jason Chen's version more, hehehe.

^^

AWWWW.....
I LOVE HER.
SHE'S SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just fucking love her face!
Like when she talk.
SO CUTE AND STYLE.
WALAO.
I LOVE HERRRRR.

Okay anyway.
Here's why I say she's cute.
Listen to what she says as she explains how she'd get a point for the Youtube competition!!

"I love how they just assume everyone has a Facebook and a Twitter..."
"BUT ANYWAY....."

HAHAHAHA.
MADLOVES.

GO AND HELP HER BITCHES, MUAX.

And this is FUCKING CUTEEEE!!

And this.

And this.

WHY IS SHE SO AMAZINGLY CUTE.

31st.

2010-12-31T21:57:00.002+08:00

Hey everyone..
It's 31st December again.
My 15th 31st, what about you? (:

2010 had been a really hard year.
Lots of things happened, like hell on Earth.
Sigh.

I hope 2011 will be a better year....
Horoscope said it will be, for Taurus...
I'm a weird Taurus... So Idk if it'll be referring to me too lol.

Been having a hard time trying to act like nothing's wrong.
Well actually nothing is wrong.
Just that nothing is right as well, hur.

Ohwell.
Nevermind.
Bye (:

And,

Happy new year in advance, pricks. (:

Enough.

2010-12-29T04:11:00.003+08:00

Enough is enough~
I will open my eyes from my rest and feel happy.
It'll be a brand new day.
Nobody, nothing and nowhere can make me sad anymore.
I've no more feelings.
I feel fucking numb.

Too numbed to feel anything.
It's like, the worst is already over.
Days and nights I spent crying like fuck.
Days and nights I spent thinking about you.
Days and nights I spent, just felt like dying.
It's over, I swear.

I've so many people around me to live for.
My akl, sis, my good friends, my family, my bright future?
HAHA!
I am very happy now.
My life is going into another stage right now.
Once the tough route is over,
I will be even happier.
:D!!

I will be happy, I know I will.

And for you?
Just be happy and I'll be happy (:

Fml.

2010-12-26T04:06:00.002+08:00

Enough is enough.
I've alr gone mad.
Why must it be like this.
It's not fucking funny.
I FUCKING WANT TO BE HAPPY.

BUT WHY?
WHY?
SOMEONE TELL ME WHY?

I HATE IT.
THIS LIFE IS SO SICK.
SO FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF EVERYTHING.

WHY MUST I BE THE ONE SUFFERING?
WHY MUST I BE THE ONE CRYING LIKE FUCK?
WHY MUST I BE THE ONE ALONE?
WHY MUST I BE THE ONE THAT GOES THROUGH EVERYTHING?
WHY?

I'M FUCKING TIRED OF THIS LIFE.
I CAN'T FUCKING DO ANYTHING TO MAKE IT BETTER.
ALL I DO IS CRY NOW.
WHY?

I'M GONE.
FORGET ABOUT ME.

FUCKING WORLD.

Dreams.

2010-12-20T23:11:00.007+08:00

I want you to,
Take over control, take over control.

18th December 2010.
I woke up in tears, feeling helpless.
Open my eyes, it was only just a dream.

(:

Days been normal.
Work, slack, sleep, work, slack, sleep.
My bad eating habit is back.........

Been having a hard time these few days.
Alot happened.
Alot things...

Most rabak is I can't tell anyone at all.
NOBODY....
Ohwell.
Haha.

It's 11:14pm now.
I'm blasting Just A Dream in my room.

Today went textile, then ica, then safra.
Met akl, farah, ree and kuanlin.
Nua etc.
They drank, blabla.
Cabbed aj home, then I trained back tamp, go 824 for breakfast at 8pm.
-.-
Then homed, nua, bla.

---

Aj came my house w darren last week or something.
Styled her hair, fun die. HEHE.

HENSUM SIAK LOLOLOL.

Our west coast slack spot :D

My bed, duh. LOL
SOOOO KAWAIII, no just kidding.

See I style her hair until we have fun LOL.

My house; Guest room.

ARHJARRRR :D

Me and bibi yesterday.

Met her and bee :D!!
Stupid jocelyn in japan -_-

West coast plaza.

---

All random pictures luh.

Nothing to say.

Tomorrow working.

Bye.

---

Erm, idk if is full song.
Song is 3.28...
But this is 2plus o.o LOL.

Full song kena the WMG thing, copyright sucks. LOL

And this is awesomeeeeeeeeee!!!
ORHHHH-SERM!

The other side by bruno marzzzzz!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m8Ed8in9Qng

CLICK IT, THEY DISABLED EMBED ):

---

You have no idea how many went crazy for you.
Get drunk and seh, screaming your name.
Crying for you.
Asking everyone why don't you look at them a second time.
Numbing themselves with all they can,
Because the pain's too strong to take.
You have no idea how many almost died loving you,
While you don't even look at them...

Sigh.

2010-12-12T10:58:00.004+08:00

I've nothing to say.
I'm mad fucking speechless.
HUR.

I shall let pictures do the talking.
I'm not happy, that's it.
I'm tired too.

Gna start working on monday.
I shall numb myself with work.
(:

Sis birthday went thai village for dinner.

Bad quality, well, for a sunday....
Expected. It was kinda bland.
Lol.

All random pictures above.

New ear studs.
And akl necklace with arhjas.

Had sakae buffet with aj akl at west coast plaza.

SALMONNN SAAAASHIMIIIIII~~~~

---

Tonned ytd.

Reach home at 7plus in the morning,
Then 8plus left house go geylang with aunt uncle and cousin.
Back at 10plus.

It's 11:11am now,
I could really use a wish right nowwwwwww.

Kbye.

Just a dream.

2010-12-03T06:22:00.005+08:00

Just a dream,
We were only just a dream.

I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yez I would die for you babeh,
But you won't do the same..

Mad nice!

Anyway,
I'm back on drumming.
Well obviously I suck at it, LOL!
Hahahahhaa.
I should be studying please.
Still drum, urgh.

---

---

MAD FUCKING AWESOME.
I LOVE CHRISTINA GRIMMIE!!!!!!!!
I can't stop staring at her :DDDD
Hehehehehe.

I love this song...
It's nice.
And I relate to it. WOOHOO.
(Y)
BAIK LA SIAKKKK.

---

Anyway.
I slept at 7plus in the morning yesterday..
Woke up at 7plus in the evening..
Today whole day damn empty.
As in, I felt mad empty...
This emptiness almost killed me :l
My face was -_- all the way, zzz.

Sigh.
I'm helplesssss.....

It's 6.29am now.
Sun's rising again..
Everyday I live like this.
Without a goal, no target, nothing.
I lost my motivation in everything.
My heart's in a mess.
My brain is killing me.
I'm so troubled.
Sometimes I just scream like fuck at home.
Mad. Zz.

Nothing much luh.
I just..
Idk.

I kept staring up at the nightsky in the middle of the night and stone.
Zzzz.
I'm super mad deep down.
Wtfuck please.

Anyway I had fun yesterday with L&B.
Mad cutessss!

Bought 2 shirt and a earring.
Lol.

K. Bye.

'If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.'

I still love you.
So much, so deep, so true.
All I ever asked for was your love.
But we could never be together.
There's so many reason we can't be.
But 1, I know it clearly,
We should be together, for happiness.
But all, that I don't give a fuck to know, but I still do,
Is that, we're not meant to be....
I guess it'll only be a dream...

It'll always be,
Something I'll never let go of.
You'll always be,
Someone I'll never stop loving.
Darl, did you know?
It's been 196 days.

I may have loved someone else in the period of time,
Somewhere along these months..
But do you know,
I've never got over you?
Talking to you again, or even just seeing you, not even talking,
Or just, your pictures, your everything.
They make me fall for you all over again.
Or maybe when I THINK I got over you,
I haven't didn't.
The mention of your name still affects me.
The sight of you still affects me.
People say, if you're over someone, you won't get affected AT ALL.
But I still do.
And I do miss you.
I'd still stare at you when I'm with you.
Everything about you just attract me so much...
I don't care about your past,
I don't care about anything that you think I'd mind about.
I only know, I love you, for everything you are..
But we're impossible.....

Perfection?

2010-12-01T17:41:00.004+08:00

A perfect match,
Will always be only a dream.

---

Sotplug.
Addicted to this song after listening to it twice.
LOL.

I still love this song alot.
Weehooheehooooooh.

If perfect's what you're searching for,
Then just stay the same.

It's what I always wanted to tell you.
I wanted you to believe it.
But you still didn't~

Oh her eyes, her eyes~

Glee version, awesome. :D

Love it to the max! (L)
Awww... Sweet!
Meloveglee.
But I don't watch glee, opps? LOL.

And this.....
Ohhhhh....
Sexiest video ever.
LOL.

Fucking sad song.
-___-"

This one too....

---

Random.

---

Hi everyone.

It's the 1st of december already.
So, happy December everyone. ((:

Been staying in this few days.
Sigh.

My mind's in the worst whirlpool ever -_-
Just suck me into the time votex and kill me, tyvm.
Sigh.

Anyway.
Slept this morning at 7plus..
Woke up late at 1plus, hahaha.
Slowly prepare then cabbed over cantonment for reporting w mum and sy.
Aiya, don't mention alr.
Irritate me like fuck only.
ZZZ...

Went chinatown point eat dimsum then cabbed home.
Now I'm homed.

Heading tm meet D K L later.
Ohwellz....
I'm so tired.

Working with Arhjas arkaliao, darren and zhengjie on sunday!
Fuck sia, maybe 6plus need reach.
Jitao is all ton together then go working place liao -.-
ROFL.
Ohwell.
Haaa.

'Messed up one sia you, love until someone you cannot even talk to.'
'If is me, never talk, feeling sure fade one loh.'

LOL.

---

Madfuckingchiotioboh!
Hahahaha.

---

This stupid bitch song.
Made me drop 2 tears yesterday.
Haiyer.
Must be the memories behind this song.
LOL.
Hahaha!! :D

我雖然難過, 愛讓我懦弱.
付出的太多, 無法解脫, 這心痛妳能明白嗎?
我應該如何, 才不會是這結果?
我愛妳愛得好辛苦, 愛得好孤獨, 愛得沒有退路, 我好無助..
抹不去痛楚, 忍不住的哭, 這是妳給我的禮物.
我愛妳愛得好辛苦, 愛得好孤獨, 愛得不能醒悟, 妳好殘酷..
我看著來路, 妳並不在乎, 也許吧, 我無所謂, 一個人去漫步...

---

A perfect bag for you, Chanel.
You know you'll be perfectly happy w it.
But there's too much for you to do to get it,
So you stopped trying to work for it.
And cuz, even when you get it, you might lose it cuz of people around you.
And because you can't afford it anymore after the first bag.
This is a bag, much nicer one, the one you want.
But you can't afford it anymore.
So this perfect match is now just a dream.
Because perfection never exists....
You tried, you wanted to, but you just can't.
Nobody knows why, but somethings have no explanation too..
The Chanel bag doesn't blames you for giving up,
Cuz the bag knows, perfection never did exist in the first place.
A perfect match will always be a dream.
It'll always be...
Something I'll never get over.

~~Z + C = Chanel.~~

---

I suck at letting go and getting over.
Ohwell, TOOOO BADDDDD~

K gtg out. Bye.

It's been so long.

2010-11-27T23:32:00.008+08:00

It was, nothing.
Then again, it's nothing, again.

Hi everybody.
It's been 17 days.
I feel empty till now.
It was nothing,
Then pain, agony, misery,
Then anger then frustrations then craziness.
Now, it's numbed, and nothing, again.
Lol.

Ohwell.
Idk what I did the past 2 weeks and 2 days.

I mostly stayed in, or nua.
Or go down west side meet Arhjas arkaliao and co.

Okay.
19th, morning went over holland meet aj and darren at 10am?
Slacked and stuffs.
Alibaba then went back east on train with aj d ahdi gera peiqi.
I went home, alibaba, slept.
Cuz didn't sleep hahaha, was mapling LOL.

Next day, went over coasta sands meet aj gera ahdi darren peiqi.
Went wildwildwet at 1pm.
Left at around 3.
Stayed at chalet until 12plus 1am.
Then bee came over fetch me, then walk out cabbed home with her.

Chalet was fun.
But I was tiredddd. lol.

Hurrr, then next morning went over pasir ris in the morning.
To pass aj her wallet that she left with me then went home.
Lol.

Following 2 days, met them at holland.
23rd,
I got really angry lol.
Weewee sis made me fucking pekcek by dragging time t.t

Halfway last min decided to go tiong meet weewee and susu at tiong.
Thinking will go over holland together.
End up I from 6pm wait until 8.30pm then cab over -.-
Cuz sis want go bugis, then blablabla, wa pekcek lol.

Days' been fine... I guess.

Anyway random.

ROFL HAHAHAHAHA.
MADLOVES TUMBLR.

K.
Today's the 27th.
It's weewee sis' birthday!! :D
Happy 17th birthday!
Be a goooood girl and stead okay.
^^
If not me and aj eat up your koi fish together LOL.

24th,
I woke at 11am plus.
Went down meet jo and bibi.
Bought stuffs then cabbed over jo's old house.
Nua, mj awhile, then jo pangseh us at her own old house -.-
Me and bibi whipped up a meal for ourselves.
Then watch tv, laugh, blablabla.
Around 4plus? I left.
Raining mad heavily.
Wanted to clementi,
Then I realized I lost my ezlink.
Fml lol.
So I went home by straight bus.
Well, lucky there is.
But it was express bus, then i only got 60cents.
I told the uncle I not enough money and I lost my card ):
LOL.
If not I'm stranded at pasir ris ROFL.

K so.
Went home nua abcdefgh la.

The 'meal' me and bibi whipped up.
ROFL.

We kinda somehow, cooked while smoking.
Man I like that feeling! ROFL.
Oh, and with 2 dogs staring at us F3

Ok.
25th, went out to get food and meds for dad.
Bumped into my aunt and cousin.
Chitchat and stuffs,
Decided to go over their house cook spag for them LOL.
Went over at, 4plus.
Nua until around 9, went home.
Hehehehe.
So fun loh cooking :D

26th,
Went over mount faber safra at about 7,30pm.
Met ahhong o.o
Then I went toilet.
Halfway touching up my screwed hair. ( Oh right, I cut hair alr. )
Suwen crashed into the toilet.
Scare till me ROFL.
Went over pool area.
So, there were, me weewee susu kangjun ahhong and tony.

Waited until, idk la, 8plus.
Aj darren and ahdi finally came over.
Lol.

Blabla whole night, around 10 like that, susu and weewee left.
Me aj d pq and ahdi went over hawker.
I was having hardcore moodswing then.

Until we reach hawker.
There's this drink stall...
The songs... MAD FUNNY.
So we started cracking up and laugh like one kind.
Super funny and joke.
And I felt better, lol.

Finish eating etc,
Went back holland.
By the time we reach, alr 11.15pm?
So I only can stay for like, 20 minutes.

Left on bus at 11.40pm.
Trained back tamp, bus-ed home.

Today, I'm here (:

I've been potter-ing.
Years back, I stopped at Azkaban.
Now I'm at Half blood.
And I feel lazy alr.
But still, I'm very attracted to potter series.
:D

And Emma Watson...

HOT MUCH ISN'T IT?

Lovely, :D

---

Life still goes on...

---

Maple ss.

1 is bangla version.
1 is normal version.
ROFL

---

Long time no see,
How're you guys! :D

This is before I cut my hair.
My hair now like short only lol.
My long tail is gone.
It's above shoulder length, cover-collar length now.
Everyone says it's nicer, neater, better, blabla.
I'm not used to it )))))):
Ohwell.

That's all babies.
Bye~

---

Beauty.
Loads more.
This is only one of the tons.

---

Funny how people sub voldermort's face into pictures.
It's lika funny.

:D
Bye~

Peace?

2010-11-10T08:56:00.002+08:00

I will be back after afew days.
Guess I really need time alone to pick up my pieces.
I need to keep my cool and relax.
Maybe I'd feel better.
I can't stand being misunderstood by the one I care about..
But after all that I saw, I immediately knew it's inevitable...
Idk what to do....
And I really don't know what I was doing.
I was in a great mess......

Silent.

2010-11-10T06:41:00.002+08:00

HI!

Had serious flu this few days.
Jitao sorethroat, cough, alot phlegm, runny nose, blocked nose, fever.
Whole body damn nua.
Then cuz too nua, lie down too long for 2 days,
Backbone and whole body very stiff!!!
LOL.

Okay so.
I woke up around 8plus 9pm.
Went out at 10pm.
Went Safra meet Weewee sis, suwen, emerson, katherine, and another 2.
Around 11pm plus,
Tompang sis and sw cab go home.
HEH (Y)

I'm feeling much better, hehe.
Ate alot recently also.
ROFL (Y)

K la that's all :D

I've actually blogged a super big chunk of thing.
But I think, put at drafts sua.
Rofl.
At least got place rant luh :D

Watch me burn.

2010-11-08T01:44:00.002+08:00

I just remembered something really cute!

Were talking about cockroaches...
Y'know.... Kazuaa.....
Everyone's afraid of them :P

Then Weeling sis and me had this stupid conversation.

Wl: If one day, cockroach extinct from the whole world...
Wl: Then if let me tuu tio one hor...
Wl: You know what I will do?
M&E: Idk o.o Kill? LOL.
Wl: I will go put on auction!!!!!!!
Me: WA SISTER!! YOU FUCKING CUTE!!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHA.

And I think I mad ley.
I can go like shout, 'SISTER!! I LOVE YOU!!'
Then weeling will, 'LOVE YOU TOO!!!'

Then I start laughing out loud.
ROFL.

SOT HAHAHA.
I'm high :D

K la just a random post.

Ate alot medicine today.
Gna rest more these few days!
Teehee.

Lalala!

2010-11-07T07:45:00.002+08:00

Been so long since I blogged!!
Heh.

Gna anyhow blog abit (:
Since I'm waiting for my rice to cook.
HEH.

Having very bad sorethroat and cough now.
Cough until chest damn pain.
Normally already got chest ache liao siak -_-

Anyway so.
Nothing much ar?

Went powerhouse with Ling, Ryan and Michelle.
Went down vivo meet them after waking.

Then nua around etc, met Ryan's friend,
Then head over to ph.

Club drink blabla dance etc.
Mad funny la.
Alot jokes, nyeheh.

After party ended at 4,
Went off to vivo area hawker.
Stayed and ate till 5.30am.
Bus 65-ed with ling and mich.
Changed bus at ling's house and went home.
Jitao fun day! HEHE.
(Y) Mad awesome!

I jitao fucking high HAHAHAHA.
But dance until damn hot :S

Rofl.

Nothing much leh.

Today, 6th,
Went out meet weeling sis and suwen dasao and Katherine.
Then went over t1 wait for emerson work end.
Went safra afterwards.
Stayed until 3am for pool.
I jitao nua there, BAIK (Y)
Got aircon got table chair got drinks got snacks got jokes and laughters!
HEHE.

Went 900+ voiddeck nua until 6am.

Alot jokes ar.
We laugh until people call police complain ROFL.
Then tio screen, chat with the police officer.
ROFL.
(Y)

ALOT JOKE LEHHH!!!
Dk how blog with details.
Nyeheh.

Ohwell!

Kk shall get going? (:

BUHBYE.

---

uoyiaem

Today,

2010-10-31T20:31:00.004+08:00

Keep holding them back,
Cuz once they leave, they'll never come back again.

I revived my Tumblrrrrr.
Clicky here!
HEREEEE.
HEREEE BITCH, HERE!!
No actually...
HERE. :D

Tumblr,
Is where I reblog things,
That I think are...
Beautiful,
Mad awesome,
Or pictures of people I love,
Or quotes that I can relate to,
OR, I just reblog them because it's good.
Or.. I just think it needs to be reblog.
LOL.

Also where I become an ahgua and reblog girly stuffs.
Esp.. Aiya idk.
If it's pretty, I'll reblog it.
:D

---

And I'm in love with this song....
:D

:D

---

Reblogging S.H.E stuffs on Tumblr.
FUCKYEAH.
ALOT SELINA FANS :P
Hohoho :P

---

30th,
Woke at 1230.
Prepared and panicked and rushed like mad.
Jitao no time.
Idk how people can get ready so mad fast -_-
ZZZ.

I was a moron that noon, rofl.

Cabbed over NUH.
Fetch dad home.
Bought delifrance.
Then yeah.

Watched The Walking Dead Season 1 Episode 1 with sis.
New show :D
Mad nice.
Like L4D come to life (Y)

K luh, shall not blog much.
Bye.

---

Make me feel like crying... -_-
Sigh.

):

Original song here:

Lyrics:
會痛嗎？那一下下我的心都碎啦。
你豆大的淚珠不停的落下，你卻沒有忘了堅強。
心疼嗎？愛你的人心當然會疼啊。
公主selina，你受了點傷，你還是我的公主呀！
selina，輕輕甩著長頭髮，飄來一陣陣的香，我注定屬於她！
selina，粉紅色來形容她，驕豔玫瑰也只為她芬芳！
我願守在公主的身旁。

Ella wrote this song ley... :D

They're so cute omg *-*
I think my love for S.H.E,
Deepest already. (L)

This is only sang by Ella and Hebe...
Just afew days ago..
When they know Selina got into accident,
So the mood is like, damn -_- one :l
SIGH.

And,
31st October (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SELINA.
I love youuuuuu...
Get well soon.
Everybody's waiting to see you happy again.
(L)

Madlovesforever.

Zero gravity,

2010-10-30T00:37:00.004+08:00

Nothing brings me down,
When you're around, it's like zero gravity.

I know I look like I applied eyeliner on lower lid ._.
Rofl, Idk what happened too.

---

I'm loving angels instead.
Through it all,
She offers me protection.
All her love and affection.
Whether I'm right or wrong.
Down the waterfall,
Wherever it may take me,
I know that life won't break me,
When I come to call,
She won't forsake me,
I'm loving angels instead..

---

Random rofl.

---

I woke up at, I forgot.
LOL, 2plus?
Yeah.
Prepared etc,
Went over to visit dad with Mum and Sy.
Cabbed over NUH.
Visit etc blabla,
Went over Paragon for breakfast-cum-lunch-cum-dinner.
Ate, cabbed home.

On all my cab rides and all the time spent at town,
I saw so many words/things/names of places.
All those that I'm absolutely superuber sensitive to...
Those that I'm not supposed to even get reminded of.
I saw all of them.
I fucking shag like mad -_-
Ohwell..
Ha.

---

29th October:

Just like every other day,
I wake up,
I stone.
I try my very best to make myself happy.
But the first thing I saw/read,
I actually dropped 2 drops of tears.
FAIL.

But anyway....
I went out to meet mum and sis at TM.
For breakfast-cum-lunch-cum-dinner.

Ate, cabbed home, rofl.

---

Time passed so fast today.
I woke at 6pm + abit...
Now it's already 1.01am.
I lived through almost a day without you.
Great big improvement.
But I know it's not my effort that made this big leap.
It's the fear I have that's stopping me.
I need to stop this paranoid+sensitive shit before I go back to normal state.
Rofl.

Okay, that's all.

Anyway this is awesome.
I love her hairstyle, hair colour; PURPUR LEY!!.
I love her simple yet pretty makeup.
Her costume, just, suit her.
And her smiles in there, are super stunning.
Like, holyshitiwnamarryyousomuchkatyperry.
It's like, omfgly fucking beautiful!!
No longer the candy-lookalike dressing.
I love how beautiful she is,
Just in simple clothes. (Y)

Enjoy k! :D

终于, 走过这一路上风风雨雨.
心中, 又再次重回平静.
偶尔, 回想起过去的点点滴滴.
未来, 还有更多期许..
我曾攀登山岭, 也曾跌落谷底.
但这就是人生,
无奈却又充满惊喜.
只要勇敢前行, 相信就有奇迹.
把握住每一刻, 让一切都值得.

Huang guo lun write de song.
Sang on kang xi.
MADLOVES (Y)

And my direct translation, chinese version Firework.
Just 1 sentence la.
LOL.

English version is:
D'you ever feel,
Like a plastic bag,
Drifting through the wind,
Wanting to start again.

My stupid version:
D'you ever feel,
Lika 塑胶袋,
在风中飘泊,
想从头再来过.

HAHAHA.
TOO BORED IS LIKE THAT ONE LA.

K bye!
Gna watch DXST then bored until go watch WMTS3D (:

---

Edits:
Holy shit.
This live is good!
Like, no backup singer,
But her vocal like better!
(Y)

WAY TO GO KATYPERRYYY!!!!!!
MADLOVESYOUU.

Anyway,
Did I mention?
Firework is a beautiful song.
(Y)

Forever never.

2010-10-27T18:23:00.006+08:00

Take my hand,
And close your eyes.
Breathe with me,
Believe in me.

Love?
Limpeh fuck your mum la uh,
I diu your whole family die only.
Kaninaehcheebai.

---

Hi.
I didn't go out as usual.
At most nua around.
Anyway so.

Woke up at like, 12pm.
Went down tiong, waited for 40 minutes. -_-
Finally, this 2 cameeee over to tionggg -_-
Say hi to Zoe and Farah! :D

This was taken when we were having dinner.

*Eateateat*

Say hi to Me, Farah and Arhjas! (Y)

Me aj and wilson.

Brother sister arkaliao arkachiuji 184 pbt la siak.
LMFAOZ!!

Aj Michelle Zoe Farah Me.

Aj Michelle Zoe Farah Me.

Arhjas & Clare (Y)

HUAT AR.

*Eateateat*

Farah's model picture at iluma's toilet.
HAHAHAHA.
(Y) BAIK LA SIAK!

Arhjas geksai at raffles hospital lift lobby.
ROFL.

Ok so.
Met F and Z at Tiong.
Blablabla awhile,
Then they ate at niwasushi.
Went over ntuc.
Awhile, Arhjas met us at ntuc.
Lmfao she grew taller again siak knn.
-_-
LOL.

Went over Bugis.
Met Ling there~
Walked around and blablabla.
Met Michelle and wilson.
Went over Raffles hospital.
Zoe went counselling.

Nua at foodcourt for drinks with aj and ling.
After ling went off,
Went up with Aj.
Awhile, all done, went down smoke.

Walk around at bugis street etc blablabla.
Around 8.20+? Aj left for holland.
Zoe left at 8.40 like that.
Then michelle and wilson left.
Me and farah kupped then went iluma.
She jubeat, then we chatted and stuffs.
Then trained home at almost 10.

Went 824 buy food for mum and sis and myself.
I starved my family, SORRY. LOL.
Reached home around 11pm like that.

I was mad fucking sad that night LOL.
I jitao hur -_-
Rofl, nevermind.

That's all luh.

---

A thousand miles,

Zero gravity,

Touch my hand,

Crush,

Angels,

---

Anyway,
Yesterday I slept at mum's room.
Then, I was watching tv ar, so bored.
Keep switching channels and stuffs,
Then I saw news.
Selina at china film show,
Then got bomb scene or something?
Then got accident,
Burn until her 40% skin -_-
Fml sia.
I jitao heartbreak on the spot T.T
Sigh....
):
God bless Selina Ren Jia Xuannnnn )))):

Sayangggg~

2010-10-23T03:35:00.004+08:00

When I love,
I really do, love.

Pearl.

E.T.

Who am I living for?

---

Hi.
I forgot what I did for the past few days.
LMAO.

I didn't go out though!
Finally meaning my words and staying in!!

Hmmm.
Days been bored?
But like happy ley! :D

Been waking up to cig, food and, a brandnewday~
LMAO.

Hmmm.
Well~

I cut my hair alr.
LMAO.
Jitao like some helmet -.-
AHAHAH.

Today is flyday.
Slept at 8am and woke in middle,
Like, idk, thunder lightning heavy rain abcde.
1 minute got 3 or 4 thunder and lightning.
Like, in a pair of lightning and thunder.
Knn sia.
Jitao got woken up and can't sleep -_-

Well anyway,
Woke at 5.30pm.

Woke up to cig, mega mcspicy meal, money, and milo~
LOL. Jitao swee lifestyle.

Chatted on phone with aj blablabla,
Then prepared to go out.
Met Sis and J at supercuts.
Laughed like fuck with J while waiting for sister to cut hair.
Went over starbucks.

Always the same 3 drinks.
None of the food/cake is mine, LOL.

Crapped etc and stuffs.
Played stupid game and kept laughing on iphone.
Cheebai sia the game, Cut the rope.
Go buy the full version, YOU SURE PEKCEK LOL.
Hahaha, but lika fun only.
Hoho.

But I was having a bad mood then.
Jitao felt like bombing starbucks up.
Lmao.
But I still didn't have this black face.
Just, inside my heart, yeahhh.

Went out to nubox,
Then went shopping blabla,
Macs afterwards.

Super crowded and stuffs.
I wished I could just bomb the whole shop and fuck all of them up.
Fucking noisy.
ZZZ!!!

And I see kids ar, I jitao feel like strangling them
Holygod, I'm sucha sadist loh, jialat.

Went back 824 afterwards.
Met bee at 824.
Chatted etc and she was like so worked up HAHAHA.
Fucking cute.

Sent her home at 1.20am like that.
Stone and chatted blablablabla at 824 until like,
2.50am.
Then all went home.

AND I'M HEREEE.

'YEAH SHE USED TO RULE THE WORLDDDD~'

---

Iloveyou.

---

My hair, after just cut.

Never do anything at all to it.
Jitao is @$!@%!@%$@!$@!#$ -_-
I almost fucked my life -_-
But after that like not bad,
Then I go webcam zoe and show her how cute I looked.
LMFAO!!!
Too hyper luh, lmao.

Not cute here, idk why.
On webcam jitao ji keai de w0rhx.
LMAO.

Lurbbbeeee,

Euuuuszxc.

HAHAHA LMAO.
I was too bored.
Like, middle of the night?
LOLZ.

---

Today's picture.
Only got 1.
HAHA.

---

OH YES AND, FUCK YOU KNOW!!!
2 days back,
I was smoking with bel in my room,
Then open window.
KANINA, JITAO 1 DRAGONFLY FLY IN -.-
ZZZ!!!! LOL.
Well but we killed it.
With a badminton racket, and 5 SHS exercise books HAHAHHAHA.
Ok.
End.
LMAO.

Oh and today,
I keep sneezing.
Nose like got riverrrr.
Knn keep sniffing like ahhai.
Yesterday night got fever, rolleyes -_-

---

Sometimes I really don't know.
I think and force myself to get an answer.
End up force until I pekcek and almost cry :@
So I give up, LMAO.
Lucky I have my listening ear (Y)
Ohwell!...

---

I suddenly miss this song alot...
Lol.
I used to listen to this song and cry.
And Untitled..
2 years back, june.
Jitao listen 1 time cry 1 time.
Fucking mad sad and pathetic that year.
LMAO.

And this....

And I never wna say goodbye,
But girl you make it hard to be faithful..
With the lips of an angel...

---

'Voice of a Nightingale.'

This is swee.

2010-10-18T17:44:00.002+08:00

I found this on my older posts...
Still makes alot of sense to me.
(Y)
Jitao is what I feel, madloves!

---

This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel.

Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever.
You don't want to laugh, 'cuz y'know it's not going to help.
But you don't want to cry, 'cuz it'll just make you feel worse.

You feel like your heart's falling apart, but not only that,
But y'know, soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too.

You don't think it'll ever end,
And no matter what this person has done to you,
It feels impossible to stop loving them.

And everyone wonders why if they've hurt you so much,
Then why d'you still love them.

That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do.
And the people who hurt you the most,
Is normally the ones you love the most.

And then, after a few weeks,
You finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again.
But y'know inside, that you're just going into denial.
And after a few more weeks,
You're back to where you were; An empty soul and teary eyes.

You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it.
And you can't help but to show it again.

It leaves deep scars on your heart, and they're there, forever.
No one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt,
No matter who they are, 'cuz it hasn't happened to them.

And even if it has, every broken heart is different.
They don't know the true pain you feel and carry.

Each and everyday now,
So you learn that basically you're alone with all this.
And the feeling starts to overwhelm you,
And suddenly you just break down, right there,
'Cuz y'know you've had enough.

The tears just instantly start flowing,
And you're to th point where you don't care who sees it.
'Cuz you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed,
And so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection.

In the midst of all these tears, y'know that its not helping any,
And it's not going to bring them back...
If you ever even had them in the first place.

After about a million tears have been cried,
You finally pull yourself back together and keep going.

Your throat starts to clench,
And your eyes burn with the tears you're trying to hold back.

Everyone says, "It'll be okay..."
....

But y'know it won't. And that's the truth, it won't.
And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this,
And you realize that people are horrible.

You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it,
So that everyone'll think that you're okay, you're fine.

So now, every time you see this person, y'know you still love them..
And you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you,
Screaming out, but for some reason, they don't hear it. They just don't..

Then you sit back, and wonder....
How one person could've caused all of these...

---

SWEE BO!!

Random.

2010-10-18T02:01:00.004+08:00

I want my bitch.
Stop being an assholez, ):

I woke up after my nap.
These came to my mind.
LMAO.
SWEET LEY, AND RHYMES! :D

---

There's nothing I won't do to make it right.
For you, I won't give up in this fight,
'Cuz I can't live, without you in sight.
So baby stay with me tonight,
I promise it'd be alright,
I will protect you with all my might.
If you're in darkness, I'll show you the light.
Don't be afraid, I'm here to take away your frights.
I will hold your hands tight.
Our future will be bright.
But before I do them, would you promise me your life?
I'll make it right. I will.

Once and for all,

2010-10-17T15:58:00.005+08:00

Every night,
In my dreams, I see you.

---

I didn't blog for like, 6days? LOL.
Was lazy and stuffs, y'know la...
Heh.

Okay so!

12th October...

Erm.
Okay I forgot everything.
Need check my phone, hold on :D

Oh, 12th didn't go out.
At home whole day :D

---

13th!

Stayed in too. Omg. LOL.

---

14th!~

Woke up and saw sis' 3 miss call,
Ling's text and miss calls.
Then I checked twitter, and saw suwen's twit.
She was heading to Tiong to meet 'Weiling and Clare'.
I was wondering.. 'Clare?.. She know another clare?..'
Then awhile, I was like, OMFG ME?!
NOBODY INFORM ME SIA!!
So I called sis and ask.
Then I rushed over to commonwealth LOL.

Met Huiping, went 4th.
Then waited for sis and sw to reach!
Then waited for Aj.

Awhile, all went over Holland.

Met Peiqi and Geraldine.
Whole day was chatting with sis and suwen.
Aww, old times! :D

And I found out something that day.
Piss me off like fucking shit.
ZZZZZ.
I totally hate it la, like, WTF???
-.-

Okay so.
Left at.. Around 10plus 11?
Went home afterwards.
:D Happy day! Hoho.

---

15th!!

Woke at 12plus.
Prepared etc.

Went downstairs meet Ling and Michelle! :D

They say I wear until like go party LMAO.
-.-
Wear slack slack, suibian abit, they say I no clothes wear.
Wear nice and presentable abit, they say I go party, LMAO.
Cute!

Then....
Due to bad weather and my lazy character.
I said... 'EH LET'S CAB OVER.'
HAHA.

Cabbed over to iluma.
They both wanted kOi, but long queue as usual...
So, STARBUCKS! :D

Bought starbucks, then nuaaaaa.
Awhile, went over Nabins.

Only I can shisha, sad siak, LOL.
Jitao strict sial nowadays ):

Awhile, Ryan reached!

:D
I forgot around what time,
Chelsea pops reached too!
And she bullied me la, walao -_-
Xiasuay maximum LOL.

):

Around 4plus?
Zoe and Farah reached!!
LIKA FINALLY ONLY, ASSHOLE FOREVER LATE WHILE MEETING ME.

Shisha and stuffs.
I jitao need entertain 3 side.
I failed as an entertainer ):
LOL.

Ryan left at around 5.30pm.
):

Left Nabins at 6pm.
Pops left for Simei alone..
Sorry poppy )))):

Okay, then the 5 of us,
Went to foodcourt for dinner.
I didn't eat, aiya, usual pattern la, lulz.
Hot until like mad that day -_-
Esprit ar, next time jacket right, no need so heavy and thick one....

Went to iluma sky to slack etc.
LMAO.
They built it,
BUT NO SMOKING, NO SITTING DOWN.
Like, then why the fuck was it there?
-.-

Walked around and stufffffs.
Went down for kOi, ohmygod loh, hate the queue.
Ordered, went back iluma slack,
Walked around and stuffs...
Arcade...
Look at this...

HAHAHAHAHA FUCKING FUNNY PL0X!!

Well anyway this is ling's leggings.
Also what I called, pornstar leggings. :D

They very asshole la!!!
Keep deesiao my hair......
Michelle: 'Yo! I am clare in 10 years! My hair cover my face like this!!!'
-.-
Asshole ok!!! ):

Her failed heart. LOL.

LUL.
FARAH AND MICHELLE!

Idk what to say, HAHAHA.

Candid ):

Farah and me!
Our hair!!! Emoz.
LMAO HAHAHA.

This is zoe, using my phone to zilian.
TSK.
Everytime see until camera album will shock myself 1 time,
Aiks..
HEHEHE Joking la :D

This...
I was talking,
Then... -_-
Ohwell!

First shot, failed.
LOL.
Flashlight forget off heh.

AND LASTLY,
FEATURING FARAH AND THE ILUMA SKY PARTY!

Ling got this 2 toys in her bag.
1 piano and 1 guitar.
Cheesepie sia they damn joke.
At sky smoking that time,
Then she took it out,
1 'play' guitar, 1 'play' piano,
1 'sing', 1 dance.
THEN SAY IS MY PARTY, LMAO!! FUCKING CUTE!!!

Heh.
I rate that day, AWESOME TO THE FUCKING MAXIMUM.
I met so many people that I loveeeee.
Omg :DD

Well anyway so.
We left each other at around 9.15 or something??
Trained with Ling and Michelle.
As usual la we 3,
Confirm laughing out asses off on the train LOL.

Michelle alighted at eunos.
Ling and me went tamp.
Slack around etc,
Left at around 10plus 11.
Cabbed back home with her!

Reach home at 11.10pm or something,
Dad jitao 'WA, TODAY SOOO EARLY!'
LOL.

Okay my day was awesome.

---

16th~

Ehhh, I woke at 4pm.
Mopped the whole house after sister vac.
Then wash kitchen floor etc,
Then slacked at kitchen and chatchat with sister and mum.
I was being super high and hyper.
HAHAHA.

Ordered pizza afterwards.
Ate at around 8pm.

Nuaaaaaaaaaaaa and did facial, mask, alibaba, everything la.
LOL.
Nua at sister's room and fell asleep LOL.
Around 11plus went over my room~

Mmm.. Then I can't sleep.... -_-
I fell half asleep at 6plus 7plus?
All the way till 10plus,
I was like, not 100% asleep.
Part of me was awake LOL.

Lie what position also not comfortable.
Hate that feeling sia kanina.
Zzz.

So,
17th!!

Woke at 10plus,
Bathed etc,
Went down with sister and mum buy stuffs,
Went back home,
Waited for 4th uncle and aunt to reach.
Then 2nd aunt and uncle.

Headed over bishan pray etc.
FUCKING HOT SIA NNB.
WA, THE SMOKE JITAO GO IN MY EYE.
KICK AR!!! -_-

Then went temple nua as usual.
HEHE.

I walked around reading those 'boards' in front of the statue,
Telling me about the buddha or what la,
Then I saw this small stack of books and all.
I flipped afew of them.
And found 1, like interesting only!!!
I took and read.

But need leave le, ):
Then I asked 2nd aunt if she has it, but she give away liao -_-
Then she ask me bring home, say it's fine.
This kinda books, is meant to be circulated around and stuffs.
People who has the heart to read, can take.
So I took it! HEHE.
Ji nice sial.
Teach you how be human!! ^^

Went over upper thomson longhouse for breakfast.
Eat liao, GO HOME!
I'M HEREEEE.
Weehoo.
So tired ):
I'm not sleepy ley...
Just feel worn out and stuffs?
):

---

ANYWAY.

My carrrr's interior design!!!
Just kidding. LOL.

---

I feel like shit today.
):

Whaisosober?

2010-10-11T02:43:00.005+08:00

Whai so sober?
I rather die than being sober.

You have no idea why Idwna be sober.
And I'll tell you.
It's because, being sober,
Allows me to know everything and realize everything.
Feel everything, and it hurts.
So I rather not be sober at all.

---

Childhood food.
LMAO.

Mum cooked yong tau hu a period of time ago.
She got this too, Sy asked her buy one, heh.

MY PRIMARY SCHOOL FAVOURITE FOOD SIAAAAA.
Whole clique forever loving it, ji nice!!
^^

---

Okayyy.
Friday, went over to.......
I forgot, wait let mehhh recall tampoh....
Went down.. Erm. LOL.
OH RIGHT.

Went down Bugis met Sis, Aj, Kj, B & C.
Halfway Zoe came down.
Walked the whole bloody BJ and VS alone while waiting for them.
T.T
Poor me, LMAO. Waited like 45 minutes.
Sadlife.

Went over Chinatown afterwards, thn went era at evening.
Stayed there from 7/8pm all the way till... 5.45am?
LOL.
Halfway N, D, Pq, G came down.

Sis was super addicted to fishing.
Wa, sit there hear the coin sound until I headache LUL.
Went down mac like 2/3 times.

Laughed like mad there with aj sis pq g.
FUCKING FUNNY!!!

Around 4plus? Zh came down mac.
All left at 5.45am on pq/g's cab.
Trained home.

Reached home at 645am, slept at 8am like that.

Nowadays sleep keep waking up sia.
Fucking irritating -.-

ZZZ.

Today, 10th.
Went down Holland meet Aj D and Pq.
Went over Zh house wake him up.

After that went down Safra kbox.
Ordered only 1 jug and shared.
B came.
Went out to eat, then go back safra.
Zh D Aj pooled.

Around 10? G came out of kbox.
Went off to holland.
D went home.
Around 11.20pm, I went home.

Tht's all.
Kbye.
I'M...... NOT IN DAAAA MOOOOOOOOD. LOL.
-_-

Firework,

2010-10-07T03:33:00.007+08:00

Baby you're a firework,
C'mon let your colours bursttttt~

---

Supppp guys~

I wna share afew songs I found on Youtube, yez again.
This girl is (Y).
But I discovered Alex Goot first.
He's awesome.
Seems like there's no instrument he can't play.
Like, totally awesome.
And I like his voice.

I like the girl's voice, style, hair, eyes, whatever.
She's not perfect, but she's magnificent!
Like god-liked?! LOL.
I love her voice, when she started DJ got us fallin' in love.
(Y)

I like that kind of voice, sexy die onlyyy.
LMAO.

HERE IT IS~ :D

And another one,
The currently very hot song,
JUST THE WAY YOU ARHHHHHH. LOL.

(Y)

:D!!!!

And this.
His original song (Y)

Not bad ley? Hahahaha.

Lyrics ji nice only:

Perfection is defined when your heart beats next to mine,
And time stands still for us.
My hand in your hair, and yours on my chest.
Moments with you are my life's best.

We crossed paths for a reason,
The planets aligned in that particular season.
It's clear to me that we'll eventually be,
Inseparable.

I love your existence,
And I cant get enough.

Your song is sung in your beautiful voice,
My senses rush cause they have no other choice.
I breathe you in, and I see through your eyes.
You are an angel in a beautiful disguise.

We crossed paths for a reason,
The planets aligned in that particular season.
It's clear to me that we'll eventually be,
Inseparable.

I love your existence,
And I cant get enough.

So pucker up and embrace the greatness,
You get me high and erase my sadness.
I love your existence, and I cant get enough.

---

I'm currently really bored.
So, a random photo.
Of me...

And, very bu-xiao-xin-ly, accidentally, Mr Small swinging around.
LMAO.

Another one O_O

Oh my hair was...
Idk, weird looking o.o
I'm forever having no eyes la.

'EH CLARE, WHY NEVER BRING OUT YOUR EYES TODAY?!?!?!'
"7th month over liao, no need bring out alreadyyyy~"
LMAO.

Inside joke and inside reasons. (:
Awesome days, hahaha.

---

Ohyea!
I watched 恋爱通告 yesterday cuz I was bored to DEATH.
Nice ley!
I'm super mesmerized by Wang Lee Hom's charm and voice.
Like totally cute only.
:D

YOU GUYS SHOULD WATCH IT LA, TOTALLY.
Heh.

This song,
In the show,
Was actually continued by Lee Hom,
From a poem that the lead actress wrote in the show.

Original poem that was sung into a song,
Er....
CAN'T FIND T.T LOL.

---

He like cute only!!!!
MUST WATCH THE SHOW.
ISWEARTOEVERYGOD.
Like, FWOAH.
And it's the story line is like,
Kinda cute, kinda sad, and nice ^^

And Chen Han Dian not bad ley!
HAHAHA.
Xiao S and Kang Yong always bully him,
But he's like (Y) only!
AIZAI!

---

I yesterday wna watch Titanic.
Cuz Idk why I suddenly go hear My Heart Will Go On.
Hahaha!
But PPS don't have, kns!

Today ask sis download,
Thn wanted watch with her.
End up I fell asleep on her bed.
Thn she lie on bed read book,
End up fell asleep as well.
Laughs!

Heh.

Anyway,
Singyee fly off liaooo!
4am ler ):
Takegoodcare aye!
:D
Waiting for my ashtray from you! ^^
LOL!

---

I'm gna be a cheebai soon.
Rip songs again ^^

This is one of them.

My phone like 600 songs liao siak.
I scared if change phone... -_-
My phone cui liao siak... zzzz.
Not enough memory put all songs, how siaaa.
Need choose songs to put in phone meh?!
Fucking kns you mei you.
-_-

AND OMFG VAGINA.
):

Bu ke yi rip siak.
Dk that webby what rubbish problem :@
Sua, tomorrow la.
Now busy blogging and stoning, LOL.

---

Anyway did I blog about slacking?
I don't think I did?
Ok so.

Erm.
Went reporting on monday.
Thn yeaa, nothing happen loh.
Kns, waste my time only, diu.
No more follow up reportings, SWEE.
Hate reporting, knn.

Went people's park center eat.
Thn cabbed home.

Slept 2 hours, woke at 5 like tht.
Prepare, went out.
Went over Holland 32 find Arhjas Darren JunMing Peiqi and Geraldine.
Awhile, Sis came back.
Her babygirl, not bad arr!! RED AND BLACK, ME LOVE!
LOL.

Slack alibaba from 7pm plus like tht,
Until 11plus.

Slowly other people come down also.
Kimjio, Jared, Jing Chuan, Peiqi's brother.
Thn others Idk name at all.
Lulz.

Left at 11plus.
Went back commonwealth, trained home.
Tired si wo.
Wtf lulz.

Thn lost all memory liaoz.
Lmao.

Anyway fuck,
WHY ST HILDA'S SECONDARY SCHOOL SO... LIKE THT ONE?!?!?!
Y U LYK DAT?!
Why change DM until Cleve Chia la siak.
I prefer Shane Kwok, like seriously -_-
Kwok aim me and my clique aim until I developed feelings for him liao ley :$
LMAO.

No point, I not in that rubbish school already also :D
Ohwell.. Next year... -_-
GAH.
SAI.

---

K stop blogging about life and random stuffs liao.
Let's start kpkb-ing :D

---

Just now,
I was bored.
I went through my oldest inbox's text.
It was like 6k+ text ago? LOL.
Yez I know, I should totally clear my inbox. -_-
I clear all contacts liao ley.
I only leave like 2 contact's text lulz.

And yez, asking the obvious.
Your texts are one of them.
I found the first text you texted me.
At that point of time, I never expected that you'll really text me.
Like, I just gave you my number and stuffs.. Then ask you text..

We got along really well.
You were being so damned cute.
You cared for me,
You text me randomly, asking me to sleep more,
To eat, or you won't talk to me.
To cheer up, make me love Him.
That was too much to resist.
Then the tragedy came along...
I fell for you.
Ohwell, a mistake I've made, yea?

You're so easy to fall for.
Like, fuck!?
I can take a month to get over you,
But just a day to fall for you all over again.
Like, nnbccb, warning label on you please.
-_-

Ohwell.
Big chunk of words like tunas in cans...
Just wna say.
I missed you.
It's kind of obvious who I'm talking about.
But I still refuse to mention any names.
LOL.

*This chunk don't mean anything.*
It's just random.
Ohwell, think whatever you want anyway.
Hahahahahaha, tired of explaining.
BOOMZ.

---

I get chills when I hear her sing.
LIKE, OMGGGGGGGGGGGG.
This song is forever my favourite song liao plzxscsxxxxxx :D

ONCE, MORE,
YOU OPEN THE DOOOOOORRRR~~~

Celine Dion, LEGEND OK.
My mum's favourite, HAHAHAHAHA.

I wna watch Titanic so desperately now, fuck my craves -_-
Heh.

---

We should totally spend more time together.
Before we all fall apart.
I don't like this feeling.
It's really like.
Time is running out?

-_- Ok sorry for the video, LMAO.
Well yea.
I don't get enough of you guys.
Like, whut, idk how say la.
Forget it -.-

---

Edited at 4.44am -_-
And I realised...
This post was created at 3.33am?
SMLJ LOL.

K corrected typos liao, bb.

Not an update.

2010-10-06T02:25:00.003+08:00

This isn't exactly an update....

Just wna post the pictures that I failed to upload.

Laughs.

This is me,
In the purpur shirt.
LOL.

And my leftover found earringz?
LOL.

Yez tht box...
Er, I find it just nice to fit in everything.
LMAO.

And very sadly...
My ashtray..
From THIS..

BECOME THIS....

CRY T.T

Even brighter than the moon,

2010-10-04T02:41:00.005+08:00

Boom boom boom,
You're even brighter than the moon.

Happened to me so many times,
Idk how many times have I cried the moment I wake up.
How many disappointments I've faced.
I have no idea how many more times I can fall downwards.
My hopes? From sky-height until 2nd storey already.

---

This live..
Yeah it's bad as usual la.
But she's really (Y).
Idk what to say.
Too awesome already~

I love how the intro, until 0.54,
Go into the chorus.
At 0.55, Katy starts tapping her feets,
Thn at the chorus, 1.10,
Fwoah, jitao is mad chio!! (Y)

---

Been afew days since I blogged.
I apologise, I was lazy.
LOL.

From 1st to 3rd,
Jitao stone.
Did some studying, etc.

I totally forgot every single shit on Maths.
Nyehhhhhhh.
Do until pekcek.
LOL.

Studied Social Studies too.
I'm awesome.

Kayla, I studied for a reason.
Not because I really wna study, LOL..

Okay.
So.

Nothing much.
LOL.

Didn't go out also.
Everyday at home, stone.
Medusa attack siakz.
Laughs.

Tomorrow, okay, later in the morning,
I'm going over cantonment for reporting.
Urghs.
Early in the morning, wtf pl0x.

Just finished watching last 2 episode of GZJD.
Both came out on the same day, fucking shiok.
Straight 80 minutes of it.
HAHA.

I was smiling like some mad cheebai.
TOO HAPPY :P

I didn't know a show can make me smile more than anyone.
LMAO.

Alright, shall blog about other stuffs.
(:

---

9 days.
I was super -____-???? at home.

Until the 10th.
Something happened.
I was super sad.
Jitao OMFG HEARTBREAK CCB URGHHZ.

Something really worthed my happiness happened.
I was smiling really badly to my computer.
Yea sot plugz.
High over cloud nine.
Until I came back to reality.
I remembered,
Tht whatever tht was hurting me,
Is hurting even more badly.
Lol.

But I 看开 already.
Just let it be?
Nature will take it's courses,
And I will let it do so.
(:

Just gna cherish what's with me,
And miss what's left me,
BUT, never want them back.
Unless it's fated la ._.
Thn.. I lanlan.
LMAO.

I'm gna be happy.

This 9 days of stonage,
I really think through alot.
K la.
I've been thinking through for like, say...
5 months?
Omg 5 months of agony.
How did I pass it.
LOL.

Before May, I wasn't thinking.
Just indulging in crap.
-.-

And, ohwell.
Things WILL get better.
I'm getting better.
Though I still feel like death,
But y'know!!!!
It'll get better laa.
(:

---

I asked mum if I should forgive and forget.
She say, anything.
:l

If it was the Clare in the past,
She will definitely forgive and forget and get everything back.
But now the Clare?
She's confused, torn between two.

---

Conversation between Heart and Brain.
Brain: Aye heart, I'm sorry.
Heart: Why sorry?
Brain: I can't give in to you anymore..
Heart: Huh?
Brain: I can't care if you still love *,
Brain: I can't care if you will still love * or not,
Brain: I can't care how long will you still be loving * anymore..
Brain: I have make you let it go.
Heart: ... Why..?
Brain: Idwna see you hurt anymore. It's been too much.
Heart: I know.. But it's hard..
Heart: Either way, I'll still break apart, again and again..? So why..?
Brain: I know, but hanging on will hurt you much longer..
Brain: I rather you hurt for a period of time, thn let go..
Brain: See my point? Tht's why I'm sorry..
Brain: I'll be there through it all, alright? Sorry..
Brain: I'll try my best and occupy myself so you'll only be helping me in pumping oxygen and blood, blablabla, so you won't hurt tht much, ok?
Heart: T.T Okay.... Try... My best..
*Brain hugs Heart*

---

Boom, boom, boom.
Even brighter than the moon moon moon~

---

Hi, I should be happy, shouldn't I?
Everyone tht seperated with me for childish stuffs years back,
Are all back with me again.
Idk if tht's fated for some,
'Reunion', whn we're all alil more grown up,
Or there's more planned ahead.
But I'm gna let things be.
And hope to be happy once again.

It's been so long since I had this..
'FUCK OMG, MY LIFE IS PERFECT!!!!!' feeling..

Now it's like..
'FUCK OMG, MY LIFE IS ALMOST PERFECT!!!!.... If you were mine.'
Cuz you're not here with me.
But it's alright.

I KNOW THINGS WILL GET BETTER!!

I shall go make myself seh with the beauty of audi A9.
CHAO CHEE BAI.
SO CHIO PL0X.
LOL.

3 years away from driving license.
I can so go bang wall now.
LOL.

Ok. Bye~

---

我是一个瘦瘦的男生,
一直等待你的人..~

---

Old song.
But I love.

每天这个时候心都特别寂寞~
像孤单单在大海游..~

每天这个时候心都特别寂寞..
在窗边吹风泪会流~
回想你在的时候我们多快乐~

---

Ccb la. My connection like sai only.
Fucking blogger upload pic fail, keep saving fail, wtf -'-

VERY PISSED OFF.
4.05AM ALR LEY HELLO!!!
CO-OPERATE CAN?!?!?!?!?! -.-

Urghs.
Gna try third time.
If cannot, not gna upload liao.
Knn :@

Anyway they are like,
Pics of my leftover accessories.
Just afew la,
But I think like tht arrange like nice.
I love shiny stuffs, so y'know!!!
All th metals... LOL.

And 1 purple shirt.
Fucking nice.
My sist de dk where de dk what thn J de,
Aiya idk la.
In my house damn long liao.
Was too small for me.
Plusssss, guy cutting, more jialat :@
But still very nice!!!
My favourite shade of purple wtf.

---

Anyway, I think my character changed ._.
Sigh..
I look and behave likaa... Stone now.
I realise I talk lesser to people.
Reply damn cold.

I used to always be there, etc.
But now I just reply hurhur, ok, lol, zzz, orh.
-_-
Like entertain, respect, so reply? Lol.
Fuck it.
I wna find back the me ):
Ohwell...

---

Dulan! 4.17am liao, cannot!
I'm trying to upload 1 by 1... -_-
Very pekcek siak. Knn.

SUAAAAA. 4.22AM LIAO.
NO NEED SLEEP LIAO LAAAA.
-_- Rolleyes.
Sua.

Walao.

2010-09-30T22:43:00.003+08:00

It's gna be 1st of October whn th clock strikes 12am!

I have a wish for October!

I wna smile more, and be happy!! :D

September passed so fast,
Awesome.

2010's ending very soon.
Huat ar.

New year coming again.
LMAO.

---

Went out to meet someone today.
Chatted alot alot.
Made me realized alot things also.

And things.... Are always planned.

Ren ming bah~ Hahaha.

Some people, are worthed your risks...
But, daring to risk it doesn't means it'll be successful.
Yeah, so, youknow....
Better be safe than sorry ar.
Don't risk at all, pl0x.
LULz.

'My heart failed me maaaaa, aiyooo :('
This sentence ar, LOL.

Bought 3 ear studs today.
I'm left with 0$ again.
Wtf.

Ohwell, but good.
Means I won't buy cig or go out!
Heh.

I'm having very bad headache now.
My head is spinnnnnninggggggg~~~
LOL.

I think I'm happier already.
(:

I will be!! Hahahaha.

I asked myself a dumb question today.
I had no answer.
If 'tht' happened, would I be crying, sad, heartbrokened, worried,
Or laughing?
My answer for now? Crying, sad, heartbrokened, worried.

Someone asked me, who would I kill if I could kill?

He told me who he'd kill, reason?
Cuz they hurt him fucking deep and badly.

Ever realise, people you wna kill th most,
Are actually people who you were very close with....
Just tht th whole thing ended off ugly enough. Lol.

He guessed afew people.
Well, tht few hurt me alot, but I said no.
Lol.
'Why not?' He asked.
'She bu de :P :x' I replied.
'HAIYOOO....' He sighed.

HAHAHA.
Ohwell!

So he came to an conclusion.
'Kill yourself? LOL'
Me : Yeaaa.
Stab myself and go all dramatic, and say,
'WHYYY, WHY ALL THESE PEOPLE. ALL THIS RUBBISH THT HAPPENNNED~~'
-stabsstabsstabstsbatsbabxtasbtba- LMAO.

Ok bye.
I can't even walk properly, knn.
Head damn pain, DIZZZZY @_@

---

I heard 2 songs in xcraft.
Jitao -___- zzzz???

Thn I went other places,
I saw things tht somehow, anyhow, idkhow, link until everything.
Fwoah.

I thought going shopping, go out, would do me good.
End up like also th same, JIALAT.
LMAO.

But still, I am happy alreadyyy!! :D

Random.

2010-09-30T13:38:00.004+08:00

Chopchopchop,
Chop onion chop leg chop pork chop.

Lai, for epic fail flamers.

Don't be the pot calling the kettle black.
Ask yourself the same question before you come asking me.
Can you do what you're expecting to see me do? No? Fuck off, retard.

And get your facts fucking right before you actually flame someone.
What's on the surface might not be the truth,
What's not on the surface might be the truth.
You won't know, so get everything right,
With YOUR OWN THINKING and some traces of maturity, thankyouvmuch.
Or you'll just make a fool out of yourself in the end,
JOKE.

---

I'm laughing at myself for trusting you.
Don't you think it was really silly of me?
To actually trust someone tht doesn't trust me back.

One tht actually doubts me so easily,
The trust sways around like a pot of plant,
Sways around whn there's wind,
Just like when someone else comments about an action or words I said.

I'm starting to wonder, wonder everyday,
If you've actually trusted me a tiny lil bit from the start.
Feel so fucking sad about this.

---

Maybe they were right, you were just saying, aren't you?
Maybe they were right, I shouldn't even have gone for it.
Maybe they were right, I should've left early. ( I thought about it, but failed to do so :x )
But not until I almost kill myself, I won't learn it.
Now I've learnt it.

---

Those laughters, jokes, smiles, phonecalls, texts and tears.
I'm throwing every single one moment of them away.
Be it my best-kept-happy-memories, or not.
I'm throwing it all back at you.
Keeping them will make me sad.

---

OHHAI.
My life is almost perfect, LOL joking, itz not beli guut.

Hahaha.

---

This time is the first time I've changed a contact in my phone,
Into something tht's not a name.
Like, WHUT.
LOL.

Some people, maybe, errrr.. Ok Eunice.
She's my bee, so I put Eunice Bee.
Kailing, I put Kailing Bibi.
Hazel I put Hazel Honey.

But this one uh. LOL.
Fucking cute.
Ownself see liao also will forget it who lai de!!
(Y)

Ok.
Gna go wash up, bathe, thn do the dishes.
Thn nuaaaa.
Around 5plus heading out meet people.
(: Buhbye.

---

And for people who doesn't trust me,.
Either tell me and leave,
Or tell me, and we solve it.

For people who doesn't really know me by heart,
Either you stfu, or you make th effort to know me better! (:

I'm not unreasonable, unless you are.
I will just keep quiet and let you !^@#*&@$^@#% all you want.
Cuz no matter what I say or do,
It's RUBBISH.
Aye? (:

Fucking wrong.

2010-09-30T01:21:00.005+08:00

Faraway for far too long,
And I love you, I loved you all along.

Because just whn I thought I was recovering,
At least 0.1%,
From this major hb and bomb tht I didn't expect,
And my anger caused by being accused, ( Oh who gives a shit? )
I realized it still hurts.

Like every single shit still reminds me of everything.
Even things tht's not concerned,
Still links up to it, somehow.

Songs, places, people, words.
My room, my phone, aiyo, whatever la. LMAO.

My brain is malfunctioning really badly.
I need a doctor.

And,

I need a psychiatrist.

No I'm not gna act like I'm not affectd.
Because, people with common sense, who knows me well enough,
Will know I'm affected.
At th least, abit?

Some people know tht I'm only being who I am,
And blogging how I feel.

Some shallow people, will think tht I'm attracting attention.
Oh, how very not sad is it to actually think tht way?
Ahhh, worth afew seconds of my life figuring out, but, no, not now.

I know I will be over this soon.

Th impact is there.
Th effect is there.

But it's getting better.

I am trying not to give a shit about like...
Whether...
Okay nevermind.
Best not to be mentioned to anyone, anywhere.

Words are always twisted.
Dk is I suay or whatttttttt -'-
-.-
Fucking pekcek.

URGH.

Ok I'm throwing 3 year old tantrum again.
Wtfuck.
Ignore me k.
Ignore my words.
IGNOREEEEEE.

K, bye.

Life.

2010-09-27T19:22:00.002+08:00

Where tears resurface,
Where Love finally turns into Hate.

Hi!

Went out lepak enjoy life with sister and Jun last week?
:D

As you can see,
Starbucks.
Omfg Greentea frappe.
My favourite for 2 years.

I used tuh like coffee bean more.
Ok la, both also like.
But y'know,
I like th Chicago cheesecake from Coffee Bean more :x
Ohwell!

Greentea frappe, memories man.
With Yiling and Michelle.
Me and yiling would always get greentea frappe.
Where michelle will get her stupid coffee kinda whatever frappe.
LOL.
Maximum bitter pl0x! HEH.

Reminded me of Jokerh too.. Th first time we met.
Plaza sing starbucks. I was drinking greentea frappe..

And, I drank it whn I was at cwp beside th dk what building?
Dk la forget, lol.
With -_- and -_-
Don't wna mention them, wtf -'-
ZZZ.

Ok so.

I had this.
No, th cream is from my drink.
LOL.

And th joke starts here....

Whn J starts drawing and scribbling on his papers.
Knn.
I laugh until almost die.

And I was having major nose block,
But at th same time runny nose, ccb.
I was maximum pathetic at starbucks -_-
Thn I begged sis super long,
Thn she went tuh get warm water for me.
Awhile later, nose unblocked....
BUT RUNNNNNNYYY!! T.T

Laughs.

This is fucking funny.
He was drawing celebrities.
Thn I asked him draw Katy Perry.
He jitao drew this.
I LAUGH UNTIL.
BUAY TA HAN.

LMAO.
WEST COAST REPRESENT~~~ LMAO.

He purposely spelt my sis and my name wrongly -.-
Kns.
I hate people spelling my name tht way.
:@

Random picture.
Lmao.

Anyway so.
Went out of house at evening.
Met sister at starbucks.
J came along.
He's lateeeee.

Alibaba relac abit,
Thn went cold storage shopping LMAO.
Bought alot rubbish!

And I was looking up on recipes.
Jitao fucking funny jokes came out from me.
HEH.

Paid lepak around, thn bus-ed home.
Heh.

Short night, but awesome.
:D

---

Face down, ass up, tht's th way we likta fuck!

I want us back.

2010-09-26T11:52:00.005+08:00

Past,
Present.

I want us back.
5 of us.

I want us back,
2 of us.

I want us back,
2 of us.

I want us back,
All of us.

Not as anything,
But awesome friends for life.

Have fun together again.
Laugh together.
Go through things together.
No fears, just hold onto each other.
Help each other.

Why so hard?
Why is it tht,
Whn someone comes back,
Someone has tuh take a leave?
Why so irritating! :@

---

People say,
No point being sad, so be happy.
But no point making yourself feel happy,
Or even act like you're happy?
Genuine happiness ain't easy tuh find.
Takes lots of falls, tears, cuts and bruises.

---

Idk is I lucky or suayy?

I anyhow type gao su wo,
End up really is th title -_-

Fucking sad song :(
Lol, and I suddenly remember,
Got 1 part, super familiar.
Maybe cuz I hear someone sing before?
Or hear somewhere before? LOL.

NI BU HUI AIIIIII~
所以宁愿安靜的等待~~~~

---

This fucking made me laugh out loud.
LOL.
Reminded me of 2 person.
All keep use this face and make me laugh :D

LUL.
Longtimeago picture~

---

Sick of everything.
Fucking sick and irritated and tired and annoyed and !@$!@%!@^@!$!@$!@$%~!

Oh, random.
But true.
THINK OF TH OPPOSITE PLEASE.
SOME PEOPLE JUST TOO STUPID.
GRRR :@

Heaven-liked (Y)
Jitao like nice only LOL.

I wna bang wall.
Lose all memories.
(Y)

Miracles?
LANJIAO.
LOL.

---

Back into 2oo6.
Whn I fell in love with S.H.E.
My Laopo (Y)
Ai si ta men liao.
HEH.

---

Anyway,
Went out lepak with sis and J.
Next time thn post bah.
Bye.

Gao su wo bei shang de shi hou,
Hui xiang qi woooo~~~ ))))):

---

Normally, I can hold everything within me.
No problem one.
But if someone keeps digging in and deeper,
I'll lose all control -_-

Heartless.

2010-09-24T07:47:00.004+08:00

Heartless, emotionless;
Loveless, senseless, useless.

---

As usual,
I have so mother fucking much in my mind.
But Idk how tuh queue them up.
It's all gushing out, omfg?
STUCK.

-_-

---

I know it from th start.
I drew my lines everyday.
But I can't help whn I'm affected.
It's not what I want too.
I just feel it.
Not like I love being moodless?

It's been so long since I waited,
Have I ever asked anything from you?
I swear I didn't meant for this tuh happen.
I tried tuh stop her, but she didn't listen.
I don't even know wtf happened?

Clear things up?
I know every single thing you said.
FROM TH START.

I pushed myself so hard sometimes,
I cry.

Yez.
I get jealoused, pekcek, moodless, affected.
I feel neglected, alibaba.
But you can choose not tuh care,
Whether it's cuz of you or not?
Not like whn I'm affected,
I only ignore you?
I ignore everyone what.

Even if I cry,
Even if I twit emotional twits,
It's not tht I'm asking for sympathy,
Or attracting attention.
Whn I blog about stuffs like these,
It's not tht I want you tuh see.
It's cuz I need somewhere tuh vent all of these.

What am I supposed tuh do now?

Whn I asked th officer for his gun,
I really meant it.
I felt like dying so much,
Tht bailing out or not,
Didn't mean any shit tuh me.

I was thinking about so many things.
And I realized, I was living for literally nothing.

I thought I was living for my mother, my family.
Thn living for someone else.
But, family?
Th one tht I disappointed like so mf many times?
Nonono.
Tht someone? I don't think it's needed.
WELL, WE'RE AWESOME FRIENDS :D
Just like old times babeh~

Sometimes I really wonder...
Why is life so amazing?

I'm a bad daughter.
I'm not obedient.
I'm stubborn.
I'm not good tuh my mother.
I'm a bad human.

But somehow, somewhere,
God placed someone in my mum's life,
And made my mum's life so much better.

For th things I can't do for her.
Make up for my irresponsibility,
My disobedience,
My fuckup character.
I don't like studying, etcetc.

I'm glad tht life's actually fair.
Something is lacked of,
Something else will be placed in.
(Y)

I've been thinking TOO much nowadays.
I'm going mad.
I can't even sleep in peace.
I dream of rubbish tht I don't even understand???
And keep waking up,
And, everything, idk.. -_-
I am forever waking up with th heaviest heart.
Wtfuckzsxc~

Lol.
Idk what I want tuh say.
But all I'm gna do,
IS TUH BE STRONG, AISEHH!!!!! ^^

拿得起放得下!
Hohoho!

I'm gna smileeeeeeeee my days away.

And I feel heartless.
Like I feel empty?
Like.. I feel like,
I don't have emotions.
I feel all devilish.
I feel all bastard child.
I feel like,
I don't have love,
I don't have care,
I don't feel depressed, sad, whatever.
I only feel anger raging.
I totally fail.
EMOTIONLESS.
AIYOOOO, kanasai!!!!!

BUT I LIKE!
CUZ I GET CONFIDENCE!
Like alot.
Everytime I fall hard once,
I will feel sieh confident.
Dk come from where one, lulul~

Whatever.
Forget what I wna post liao.
Next time thn post.

ANYWAY.

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY ARHJAS LEE!
HUAT AR, LOVEDIEYOU.
CASE WILL BE FINE, LAI DON'T WORRY BE HAPPY!!
Mai emo liao k!
(Y)

Happy birthday tuh Dolyn too!!
:D ^^

---

It's 8.39am.
I'm gna dye hair.
Lalala.
Bye.

---

Edits @ 10.13am

Here's afew of my facebook status!
This is how I see Love/feel/act like/think like, whn I fell.

Heartbreaks are not th end of th world,
It's whn you grow up and realize how dumb you are, being faithful.
Learn your lesson and be a flirt for life.
Tht's whn you enjoy life tuh th bits.

I'm gna be totally different from tomorrow onwards.
Different from who I am, right now, right here.
If you think I've changed tuh someone you dk,
Leave.
I don't need people who wants tuh see me crying with me.

If being faithful in love is good,
It's either you have see a really good psychiatrist asap before you go really retarded,
Or you haven't really fell in love. (Y)
And if you think flirting is an act of a bastard,
Go get an x-ray for your brain as well.

Don't ever fall in love, even if tht someone's there tuh catch you.
Cuz you're still FALLING in anyway of saying.
If you're being catched, you're being dependent.
Once tht someone lets go of you and throw you on th ground,
You just tested if gravity works, with your heart shattered.

I rather lust, thn flirt and fuck it, than love, fall and fuck myself up.

Those on top,
Are what I feel/think/kpk about,
Whn I feel like shit,
And naturally building up my walls.
Hiding and putting up a strong front.

Normally?
LOL.
I think from my old posts,
You'll know la.

Totally different, lmfaoz~

Ohwell.
10.17am now.
Gna wash off my hair dye soon?
Hahaha.

I wna eat, I'm hungry.
24hours since I ate.
Wo du zi e e!!!! ):

Not going out tuhday!
Heh.

---

I dislike th feeling,
Of being somewhere where you're there.
It's not tht I dislike you,
I've nothing against you.
I just feel fucking weird.
It's like, I can't get over anything?
LOL.
Nothing's ever cleared up.
It's still misty and all smoky.
Idk anything.

---

Thankyou for clearing things up with me.
I'm glad you finally said it out.
Though I can see/feel it from your words and actions all along,
I've been waiting for you tuh say.
Hahahahaha.
We'll be awesome goodfriends, BUAY TOH BUAY TOH PAH BUAY TOH EH!!!
(Y)

Alright!
Bye.

I know it all,

2010-09-24T06:51:00.003+08:00

All I need now,
Is tuh escape reality.

Heartless tribals actually made me consider putting it as an ink.
Like, fwoah?
So many years, only crosses, star of david and skull was ever considered.
Like, wtf!! Heartless tribals actually replaced them!??!
Walao, damn chio pl0x.
And it's just what I am, will be, want tuh be, and need tuh be.
HEARTLESS.
(Y)

---

Random song, lulz.

---

Hi.
Continue post.

At telok blangah crescent playground eh?
End up kena bring back tuh cantoment -.-
As for why...
SAY LIAO JIU DULAN.
:@

Lol.
Next day noon, which is 18 hours later -.-
Mum and sy came tuh bail me out.
Went chinatown eat.
Didn't have th appetite..
Saw Dolyn at th same hawker! Woahz! Heh.

Cabbed home afterwards,
Bathed and slept from 6plus till 5am plus.

Thn around 12plus in th noon left house tuhday.
Went down commonwealth.
Met Darren, thn went 4th storey.
Waited for Weewee!

Awhile thn another guy came up,
Thn Arhjas and Lileng.
Thn alot la.

Total met like, idk, around 15 ba? Never count, lulz.
Some idk also o.o
Present were:
Me
Arhjas
Weeling
Darren
Lileng
Jason
Nicholas
Yaoyang
Arron
Barry

Th rest I all dk? Lol.

(Y)

Went commonwealth crescent(I think).
Settle everything thn split.
Went purmei with Wl Aj D and L.
Met AhJin and... Idk.

At coffee shop stone etc,
Went tuh voiddeck.
Thn miko came.
Talked, stoned, alibaba, hahahaha.
Ohwell..

Aj and D went over meet her other friends for an hour something?
Me wl and ahjin chatted etc.
Laughs.

Around 6plus 7 they came back.
Sit at coffee shop until 7.30+?
All siam liao.
Sit wl's cab tompang go tiong station,
Thanks sist! (Y)

Trained home.
Puked alil at house's stairs.
Knniah eh! -_-

Went home, bathed, and slept.
It's 7am now!
My last meal was a cup noodle at yesterday's 10am. :D
21 hours never eat again, no money -.-

I bet I'm gna drop in my weight again.
Fucking unhealthy.
Idw my stomach problem come back again.
Wtfuck.

ALRIGHT.
Ranting time.
Okay, maybe in another post.
Been flooding posts' length.
Jialat siak! Heh.

Gna watch GZJD and blog some nonsensical logic.
Ouh, ironic.
LMAO.

Kbye!

Oh anyway, sis let me listen 1 song,
Very nice!
I almost cry siak!!
Fucking nice th song, LMAO.
Emotional problem siak.
Cantoment got emo-virus LMAO.

Can, toh, mond.

2010-09-22T17:04:00.002+08:00

Hi.

Not gna blog first.
But summarise abit ar..

Commonwealth koufu,
Met in total;
Darren
Ahjin
Arhjas
Weeling
Miko
Rainey
BoonKeng
Ahbee(sp)
Farah
Huiping
Zoe
Shiming
&another guy.

Slacked.

Went telok blangah crescent with Aj Wl & M.

Evening met D & F.

Went outram area overnight.
Got stucked there 18 hours.
Until 2pm plus thn left.
Powerpack.
I almost went mad and died of boredom.
Like, omfg de jialat boredom. -_-
Wna know why?

Wait for my next post.
LMAO.

Ok, thn met mum and sy,
Went tuh eat,
Thn homed.

OkThanksBye!

Depression.

2010-09-20T18:00:00.003+08:00

Staring into space,
Wondering if I actually had a place,
In your little heart..

---

I miss you.
Like a mad vagina.
But what else can I do?

I'm not in th position tuh say anything.
I asked you, you said fun.
Th next day?
A name was added.
FWOAH?

Was it a lie, or again,
JUST FOR FUN?

Take away all your beautiful lies,
Your perfect denials,
I only want th truth,
Even though it hurts, coming from you.

---

I can't even cry now.
Living dead? Lmao.
Madloves, I'm a zombie.

Heartbeat,

2010-09-20T01:23:00.005+08:00

My heartbeat,
Steal my heart away.

I love this song.
Catchy tune and beats.
(Y)

I can feel your heartbeat~

I love Enrique.
He's hot, and has awesome songs.

I love Nicole Scherzinger.
She's got nice voice, good singing.
And nice surname.
LOLOLOL.

---

And I'm addicted tuh Wali band - Baik baik sayang, for no reason.
LMAO.

Hi!
It's 1.27am.
I woke at, around 1am.
Heh.

I slept from 5pm till 1am.
LOL.
I'm kinda energetic now! HEHE.

Worked th whole of my morning away.
Met sy and syl on bus.
Thn headed over 480.
Starting working etc.
I was mad pekcek.
I wait alone from 8.20? Until 9 something.
No chair, nothing, ji hot yi xia somemore.

Thn after tht, god instructions etc liao,
So start loh.

Sit there nuanuanua,
Put th food on th tray thn sit there,
People come, let them take and eat,
Entertain them abit, blabla.

My food was Taiwan mochi.
Not nice one loh,
Dk why those people say nice, wtf pls!
-.-

Hahahaha.
I got like 3 cartons of a packet of 12.
Makes it around 150 packets?
-.-
And, never distribute finish, cannot end work.
Smlj.

So I ended up giving out packets.
Some ar, come test 1 piece,
I ask them want anot, jitao give them 2 packets.
LMAO.

Thn gave out around... Idk, forgot.
Alot.

Thn remaining 20plus,
Got people help me distribute away tuh other event coordinators liao.

ANYWAYANYWAY.
I SHOOK HANDS WITH LEE HSIEN LOONG.
LMAO HAHAHA.
AISEHHHHH, ZAI BO!!
HEH.

Okay so.
Here's my mochi.
Exactly same brand and design LOL.
Th one on top left hand corner,
Th peanut and sasame seed de.
I swear it's not nice.
LOL.
I rather go Tampines mall basement,
Buy th hot one.
NICER.
LMAO.

And......
-drumrolls-

Singyee's kuehhhhh lapis!
Heh.
She poorthing.
Need cutcutcut intuh sieh small piece.
Poorthing!
Mine just cut open th packet, pour in, done.
LMAO.

Forever so sin narng!
:P

Syl's I cannot find.
Bu dong semo lai de, LOL.

And german sausage.
Sibeh many people eat pls!!
I ate like 2 sausage also.
Supposedly is they slice into super small pieces,
But at ending,
Jitao give out in whole piece, HAHA.

(Y) BAIK.
I don't think it's real german sausage also la.
Looks damn normal.
LOL.

Anyway,
I work half, jitao nose bleed pls.
Panic die.
Thn I went koufu toilet.
-_-
Jitao WOAHHH SMLJ WHY NOSE BLEED. LOL.

Probably due tuh lack of sleep,
And early morning eat tomyum cup noodles.
HAHAHA.

Thn ended work at..... 12.15 like tht la.
But we left at 12.30.
LOL.

Went T1 with Sy, Syl and J.
We were like dressing according tuh th same dress code ma,
Black plain tee, jeans, and covered shoes.
Jitao machiam mafia LOL.
Work tht time, all black plain tee one spread across afew blocks.
Around 478 kou area, all th way till playground and busstop.
Lol.
Hahahahaha.

Went couple lab, thn went tm basement for food.
Thn went niwasushi.
Thn bus-ed back.
Reach home around 3 or 4?
Idk la, around there?... Yeaaaaaa.

Fucking funny on th bus!!
I keep laughing!!
I stopped alr loh,
Thn Syl start giggling again,
Thn Sy also.
Thn I !$!@$@!$@!$!$ -laughoutloudonbus-
LOL.
Never knew me and Syl will so arkaliao.
LMAO.

Reached home, thn nua at mum's room,
Thn bathed, ate my tori q bento,
And sleep!

Hohoho.
I had an awesome day afterall yea! :D
Heh.

---

Imissyou.
I'm so gna see you soon.
Wahahahahaha.
Okay bye.

Shakesphere,

2010-09-19T01:04:00.002+08:00

To be or not to be,
Tht is a mother fucking question.

For me,
Tuh forget or not tuh forget,
Tht is a mother fucking big question.

I always made myself tuh remember tuh forget you,
I thought it'd work.
But I realized, whn I've remembered tuh forget you,
It just meant tht,
You didn't even leave my mind and heart at all,
Not a single moment.
What's worse,
Tuh realise I actually miss you like fuck whn I don't see you,
Or miss you like sot whn I didn't talk tuh you.
Get pekcek and jealoused so easily for no reason.
Like, aiya, whatever.

And whn I forgot tuh forget you,
I'm as good as running towards death and pain.

But whn I remember tuh forget you,
I feel th same torture,
Cuz I know I can never forget you.

Useless heart, dig out and change a new one, can? ):

---

Yesterday slept at 3plus 4am.
Woke at 5am plus.
Stayed awake all th way.
Prepared,
Went koufu meet Arhjas.
Went over Kimtian meet Weeling!
Weeling went tuh eat first.
Thn as usual loh, slack and talk cock, laugh like fuck.

Thn boon came over.
Slack etc.
Alibaba.

Around.. 4/5 something?
Rainey Jason Faris(sp) came over?
Not sure of th names, lulz.

Sit there stone,
Talk, laugh etc.
They left around 7?

Slack and stoneeeee with Aj and wl.

Talk xin shi and stuffs, lmao siak!!

Slack until 11 plus, thn go home.

Fucking tired, so not gna elaborate la.

Tomorrow waking at 6 or even earlier,
God bless me. Amen.

IT'S 1.11AM ALR.

And I didn't eat th whole of tuhday.
Only morning around 6 ate abit.
Wtf, bad eating habit is back
):

OKAY BYE!

-TOH ON BED-

I'm in love.

2010-09-17T04:10:00.009+08:00

Love th way you look at me,
In those skin tight dreams, be my teenage dream,
Tonight.. Tonighttt.....

Let you rest your head on me,
If tht's what you need,
In our teenage dream, tonight.

Saw this quite long ago.
It's awesome, me love.
:D

Anyway,
Tyler Ward is an awesome dude,
Check his videos out! (Y)

This isssss mad awesome!!!
FUCKING AWESOME.
I LOVE MEGAN'S PART.
Aiya, all also love! (Y)

And Tyler's cute :D

HAHAHA.

Opps!

Anyway!
Suddenly feel like posting up some Orcas ( Killer whales ) pictures!

They're so mad beautiful and beautiful and beautiful and beautiful.
So mad cute and cute and cute and cute....
~~I'm falling~~ I fell in love.

JUST LOOOK!
I fell in love with them more than a year ago.
They're so mad cute pl0x!!!!!

Holy crappp!!!! *_*

Ji ke ai, DUI BU DUI!! :P

Heh (Y)

And!!!!

I love Polar bears th most of all 'big animals' too :D
I realise I like those...
Super white or super ... Idk.
I LOVE CUTE/AWESOME THINGS!!! :D

Yez I know Polar bears are gruesome and stuffs...
Attacks human or what..
Eat like, living things raw and bloody..
But still, WHO CARES.
LOL.
Which animal in th wild doesn't do tht anyway? -.-

Hehh!

SO FUCKING CUTE!!!!

HAPPY FAMILYYYYY. LOL.

OMG, cuter than puppies plz!!!!

Wtf hahahaha (Y) Ke ai siak.

Omggg, can I keep you at home and hug you tuh bed?
SO DAMN FUCKING KAWAII!!!!!!!

Okay back tuh reality :D

Tuhday's post...
Yea it's gna be long.
Alot lup sup as usual! Hahahaha.

I shall blog about my days? (:

Tuesday, mum left for holiday~
Bought food for sis and myself at night.

Thn during midnight,
I committed a grave mistake.
Like super wrong only -_-

Blablabla, slept at around 7am.
Woke at 11plus.
Shocked like crap at some stuffs,
And omfg, frankly, kinda happy :S
HAHAHA cheebai!

Nuaaa around, headache.
Bathed etc, planned tuh head west, thn find mum.
But end up ji tired and lazy,
So slept.
Woke at 6pm.
Left house at 7pm.
Went over find mum~
I almost lost my way, kanina.
Reached at 9.15pm -_-
Chao chee bai, LOL.

Met mum and sy, thn ate buffet.
I had 40 minutes tuh finish SUPER MANY FOOD.
Woah, I stuff food like what siak, LOL.
Though mum was mad angry and stuffs with me,
She still ordered all my favourite food beforehand.
Omg (L) :')

Ate till 10pm, left.
Went back room,
Stone and all, rest, nuaaaa,
Thn decided on Bowling instead of heading over tuh pub, heh.

Bowled from 11pm until 12am.
3 games.
I pwned during th first game,
Tio owned during th 2nd and 3rd and overall -.-
HAHAHA.

Th shoes were really smooth on th ground,
I was dancing. LMAO!!!

My fingers hurt like mad.
Dk is suay or what.
Finger alr red and pain,
I accidentally whack until my phone's hp keychain,
MORE PAIN. OMFG.
Heh.

Went back room afterwards.
Bathed, nuaaa. ENJOY LIFE.
Lie there nua only, aircon was mad fucking cold.
HEHEHE.
Shiok ar, lie there smoke with mum and chat.
Awesome!

Mum keep asking me who I like, and ask me why wna touch.
I TOLD HER EVERYTHING!...
No just joking. Yes everything, but not exactly WHY.
HAHAHA.

Ate 2 greenapples, heh.

Nua until 3plus 4, was watching greys anatomy too.
Slept at 3.30am with songs blasting in my ears.
Woke at 11.45am.
Bathed and all, checked out~

Went Jap restaurant nearby tuh have breakfast.
Thn cabbed home.
Huat ar.

Afew pictures...

OH FML I FORGOT TUH CNP MY PICTURE'S CODE,
NOW I NEED UPLOAD AGAIN, LOL.
FUCK IT.

TSK.

And fuckkk.
My IE crashed just now,
Cuz quite alot windows and tabs opened,
Thn I go click xiaxue's blog link cuz she twitted tht she finished blogging.
Nabeh, lucky post got auto save, knn.
Arbo I go mad!!!!
-_-

Ok so, pictures.

Golffffff th place.
Th view from th balcony~
Sat there and smoked before leaving room tuhday.

Toiiiilet~

Mad bored after eating.
In room.

Dressing table's mirror.
Yez bored.

Went this achipalang dong dong chiang place eat.

I wanted spicy salmon.
So I ordered anyhow.
Cuz I know it won't be what I want, lolol.
And this came tuh me.
Not bad eh actually, quite nice. LOL.

My set of... Whatever. LOL.

Sy's mad sweet egg sushi! LOL.

One last picture before we left tuh check out and eat.

---

Horoscope was mad fucking zun.
Whn I never go read, zun.
Whn I read, jitao not zun.
Diu! LOL.

Look at this..

16th September 2010:

Today, you may have to make some effort to patch up your relationship.
You may not even remember what you and your loved one fell out about,
But you need to start talking again.
Even if it is hard to make the first move,
It is well worth the effort to do so.
You both have enough interest to want to be together again.

It's love horoscope.
Abit buay zun.
Cuz what happened, weren't love.

I peaced things out tuhday with someone.
Things were mad... Cool.
Like I hesitated and stuffs,
And whn I finally talked,
Something else happened tuh be going on,
At th very same exact moment.
Wtf.

And tomorrow's daily life horoscope:
17th September 2010:

Th ending part, was this ._.

'Avoid the tendency to escape even further into this fantasy world.
Stay away from drugs or alcohol.'

Ohwell, lololol.

18th's coming in less than 24 hours.
I wonder who'll I meet?
Remember I mentioned I'll see/meet someone I've never talked tuh in years,
Or never even think about at all, on th 18th?
I'm mad curious....
Heh.

Alright, end of horoscope for now yeah? (:

---

I lost my consciousness just tuh escape from reality once more.
I anyhow talk and text and said something crucial..

Losing my consciousness was really a grave mistake,
Tht it cost me something very important; My mum's trust.
We quarrelled, I cried like fuck, wtfuck LOL.
I bombed everything out,
About trying tuh be a good girl,
Wanting tuh be a normal teen, but I can't, idk why.
Alibaba those craps la.
Think I was mad, dk where find those courage also.
Hahahaha.

I texted another person tht I wasn't supposed tuh contact too.
I think I should totally keep myself sober forever.
-.-

Th next day,
I got back something I'd been waiting for.
It was caused by my sub-consciousness,
And my 'anyhow text' behaviour.
Everything was purely 'accidental'.
Didn't plan it, etc.
I'm sorry tuh th one tht I bugged, I had no idea..

Maybe cuz I went mad and stuffs,
I was like super wuji la.
I went tuh text THT someone tht I wasn't supposed tuh.
And wtf, I got a reply.
Though it was short, I was glad.
It made my day.

Thn I realize, this is how fate works.
You HAVE tuh LOSE SOMETHING, tuh GAIN SOMETHING.
And you really HAVE tuh DO SOMETHING, tuh GET SOMETHING.
I didn't believe in it, until I really did it.

I had this strange feeling tht I should make th first move.
And I did.
Things are almost better, at least for me.

Things tht I've been dying tuh know,
People tht I've been thinking of tuh come back,
Times I've been missing,
I've got it all back.
Not exactly, but at least back in contact?

But I have no idea why,
Even though things fell right intuh place,
I feel weird deep down.
I feel like, this doesn't feels right?
But everything was what I wanted? Wtf lol.
And I'm afraid, I'm not Eminem, I'm not Not Afraid, LOL lame.
Well, I'm super scared.
FEARS.
Ohwell...
I know things'll be better, definitely~

And,
Everybody deserves a second chance, yeah?
So they'd become better.

And some, deserves more than 2, 3, 4 or even 5 chances.
Just see if tht person's worthed your disappointments.

There's always risks if you want something tht failed,
Tuh 'pass'. Risks of failing, again.
But if you really want it tuh 'pass',
Or if you really wna get back with someone,
Try, again, and again.
Until there's no more chance.
Not even a tiny lil hope, thn, stop and realize,
Tht it's not meant tuh be, and it's time tuh let go.
Keep it as memory, and reminisce once in a while. (:

---

Anyway I mentioned I was damn wuji yesterday noon right?
Yeah, but hor...
Tuhday ( 16th ), whn I really,
Buaytahan, reallyreally wna peace and get things right,
I jitao ball-less.
Like, wtfff.
I kept opening th contact's msn, and stare, type, thn backspaced.
Thn close, thn afew seconds later, open and stared, and close etc.
Th cycle repeated for 15 minutes.
Knn.
And until I cannot take it liao,
Like tht not gna cure anything,
So I typed, hit enter, and ran for toilet.
Coming back, I didn't had th guts tuh open th conversation,
Tht was flashing orange.
But I did.

I was being so straightforward idk what came over me.
Whole conversation was awkward.. ._.

I was happy, I was sad.
Half half, but oh well~

At least I got tuh know what I wanted tuh know.

---

I really hope life can get better.
I want a peaceful life.
At times laughing and enjoying times with friends,
Etc la. Relaxing life.

I neeeeeed it.
SIGH.

Okkkk.
Nothing else tuh blog liao I think.
Forgot everything.
LOL.

Oh and.
Working on sunday morning, fuck it man.
-_-

Thn most probably heading over Vivo meet D and Ys.

I said I wanted tuh blog at 3.33am.
It's 6.15am now.
-.-

I transferred pictures intuh comp,
Chose pictures, search for pictures,
Abcdefg, thn now!
(:

BUHBYE.

---

SUN-KISSED SKIN SO HOT,
THEY'LL MELT YOUR POPSICLE~

BYEBYE.
YEA LONG POST, IKR.
HAHAHA.

---

I don't want us tuh be th same like before,
Cuz I know we can't.
But I want us tuh be something new,
Something tht could even be better than before.

:D

Peacock.

2010-09-14T07:15:00.004+08:00

C'mon baby lemme see,
What chu hiding underneath?
I wna see your peacock, cock, cock, your ~~pea~~cock, cock.

-Edits-
OH FUCK.
TH KOREAN MV THT CHAI INTROED ME,
WHN I WAS FUCKING HEARTBROKEN DURING JULY....
And I cried like fuck everytime I watch it,
Cuz I think of tht person and tht person's like gone?
And... Super sad tht time, lol.
And wtf tht's making me edit it on top, is tht...
Th person I was being sad over,
Watch before and even blogged about it before
Fwoah?????
Ok I'm fucking shocked lol.
Ok end of edits!
I know this verse is like, fucking out of place.
HAHAHA.
~~Ikr, it's very obvious who I'm saying about. Blaaa.~~
-End of edits-

Happy moments; Praise God.
Difficult moments; Seek God.
Quiet moments; Worship God.
Painful moments; Trust God.
Every moment; Thank God.

No, before you ask.
I'm not Christian, nor do I love God like madloads.
I'm Born Roman Catholic.
I'm baptised at idk, once I was borned?
LOL.

Anyway..

I just think this..
Made sense somehow, idk why.
A feeling. Aha.
Somewhere deep down, lalala.

---

Mum's gna leave house for 'holidayyy' for afew days.
Hahaha.
Thursday thn coming back.
Aww.

She's leaving later at 12pm.
I'll be sleeping.
But I know she'll wake me tuh tell me...
Leave money... And cig for me.
Cuz ...

Me: You go liao, I smoke what? ):
Me: Go downstairs pluck grass thn wrap with your mahjong paper ar??
Mum: See my mood before I leave lo...

HAHAHA.
She say tht, equal got cig liao (Y)
She say she leave money for me,
But cannot buy cig!
Hahahaha, try ar :P

HEH.
I'LL MISS YOU LA OK.
MUAAAAAACKSXZCXCZXCZXCZXC.
LOL.

---

I'm currently reading some blog.
MAD FUNNY ARCHIVES.
I LAUGH UNTIL I ALMOST FAINT.
LMAO.
It's actually th blog of a 'friend' of mine.
LMAO.
FUCKING CUTE!!!!
I NEVER FAIL TUH SMILE AND LAUGH AT THOSE POSTS.
SUPER EXAGERRATE THN FUCKING FUNNY!!!
Ok sorry.

---

I didn't even start my engine,
You said I was really 'bad' and 'jialat' in THT sense...
Just imagine whn I start my engine and up maximum gear?
Can tahan bo?
LMAO.

I admit tht I can be like tht.
But I didn't even think of starting th engine -_- .
Cuz I love you guys and girls.
But still.
I guess it's my fault.
My bad for being sucha bad human being aye?
Aahahaha.

---

I miss you.
I miss you.

---

Working on Sunday morning.
Thn maybe heading over meet D and Ys.
Ahahaha.

---

I told someone tht it's starting tuh fade.
Not because I don't love you anymore.
It's because I'm so tired.
Tired of these pain.
Giving up, and I admit, I'm scared.
I know it's impossible.
I can see th pattern.
I can.

I'm gna face it like how I did during July?
(:

Though I cried like so fucking much those days.
But at least I got numbed after awhile.
Hahahahahahahahahaha.

Not meant tuh be.
(:

---

I wonder whn will you ever talk tuh me again.
I wna be friends.
Just friends.
You said you'd walk me through anything if I need someone.
Where are you now?

---

I love how people always leaves me,
After giving me their words and promises.
They love tuh leave me right after earning my trust.
Right after getting my heart.
Right after I really put my heart in everything I do for them.
Caring truly, loving truly as a friend, and stuffs.
I hate how they turn their backs on me,
And walk away, crushing those words they gave me in their hands,
And breaking those promises with th goodbyes left unsaid,
And words left unspokened, forever.

Days where I still think back,
Remind back those awesome moments,
Th jokes we cracked, how we laughed,
How we entertained each other...

As I'm typing..
Scenes of you guys are flashing pass my mind.
I miss those days.

I realise I'm really useless.
No matter how a friend left me,
Backstab betray or chase me away etc,
I still miss them like fuck.
And like I said 2 months back,
Just one, ONE, SATU, 1, happy memory,
Can just make me forget how much bad stuffs tht they did tuh me.
I'm useless, I know right~
Ohwell, my pattern ar...
Hahaha.

I love how you hurt meee~~~~

---

Like he told me,
I'll be waiting.
Life's all about waiting,
Hoping,
Having faith,
And believe.

:D

GOD, BLESS, ME.
AHAHAHA.

---

I won't regret.
Everything happens for a reason.
I might have suffered alot mentally this time round.
But I gained more than I expected.
Lovely consolation prize afterall, isn't it? :D
I just had tuh get myself out of th sadness,
And realize tht I actually won myself a prize.
:D

---

I'm gna keep both of you in my heart, forever.
My whole life, just this way.
(:

Regardless of how we turn out in future,
A second after typing this sentence,
A year after,
Or even more.
Idk.
I'll remember you.
You're like th second her.
I can't forget you at all.
Ahahahaha.
Cool man.
(Y)

---

I remember saying tht you'd be th last,
But someone from my past came back,
So y'know,
Technically,
You're still tht last.
LOLOL.
FUCKING COOL AH.

I'm crapping.
I guess I need sleep!!!

---

Anw..
Most probably meeting Joseph later.
Told him I wake thn confirm with him,
But I think... I'm not meeting Joseph alr la.
7plus still haven't sleep.
Need reach Lavender at 230pm ley.
Means wake at 12pm like tht. LOL.
Confirm cmi :x

SORRY JOSEPH~ Heh.

---

Anyway.
Body's been hurting.
Randomly, without reason.

Right thigh muscle fucking pain -.-
Thn both wrist, th last finger th palm there de bone and muscle,
Pain also.
Th side also.
Idk la.
Wrist also.
Whole hand pain.
Wtfuck pls.
Lol.

2 spot on foot ankle behind there,
Skin tear also.
Thanks tuh sis' vans.
Early know don't wear.
LMAO.

K bye!!!!
:D

--

Wa ccb.
I sit on bed and use comp,
Bend forward until my neck stiff,
Backbone, whole row of spine stiff and pain.
LOL.

---

Weds I'm home alone from morning until evening,
Whn sis returns home from work.
Gna be gs for a day.
HUAT AR.
Party alone at home (Y)
SAYONARA.

Teenage dream,

2010-09-12T18:21:00.008+08:00

Teenage Dream,
A nightmare tuh begin with.

I'm bored.

---

I'm scared.
I've been dreaming about you for 5 nights in a row.
Even though I have lots of different dreams in a sleep.
But those I remember, are all dreams with you in it. -_-
You also -_-
But only in 1 or 2 of them.
WTFFFF ????
Like fucking random -_-

---

HI.
I'mmmmmmmm hiding in my room.
I'm a tortoise in my shell.
Whn I'm scared, I'll hide.
Locking myself in my room,
With chains and chains of thoughts running through my mind,
Images of th past flashing pass my eyes.
As I shut my eyes up,
I see so much.
And I start tuh wonder why things change so fast.
In a blink of an eye,
Everything's different.
I hate changes.
I'm scared.
I fear.

---

Went down Redhill yesterday.
Met Huiping and Jonathan.
Left J, went over BM meet A F F.
Bought some drinks etc,
Went F house area.
Slacked around at usual spot.

F and H got really keesiao.
Noisy like crap.
LMAO.
Kept laughing out loud like wtf plz.

Slack till 1 plus 2,
A went home.
Cabbed home.
Wanted try my luck and run cab,
But I slowly walk :X
Thn uncle found me HAHA.
So paid him.
Laughs.

Went home, alibaba.
Slept at 6.30am.
Woke at, I also dk.
Forgot.
Headache was killing me.
-_-

Bathed and I'm here.
Gna do th dishes later.

---

I'm following @TrueTeenQuotes on twitter.
SUPER TRUE TWITS.
Mad true.
Fucking true.
So many of them just say exactly how I feel.
(Y)

BAIK LA SIAKKK!!
Must follow them, like STEADY NO JOKE.
(Y)

---

I don't want tuh see you,
But I want tuh see you.
I deny missing you,
But somehow I hope tht you'd know it.
I don't care how fuckedup you see me as,
How bad you treat me,
I still love you.
But somewhere deep down,
I wished you didn't.

---

Anw this is awesome.
Wei li an,
Hebe,
Yan jue.

THEIR SINGING UH.

PWN LIKE SMLJ ONLY.
WOOT.

---

Idk why.
You've became cuter.
I'm sorry.
I think it's my problem.
Like y'know, I've gone mad.
LOL.
Guess it's just this...
Influence?
Idk how tuh say, but, yeaaaaa.

---

Oohhh, I just did th dishes.
LOL.
Not gna eat tuhday.
I feel like puking instead.
-_-

---

I would've given up it for you,
Just because you want it.
But,
Everything's different now.
And I chose not tuh give it tuh you.

I can't deny tht I actually hate you.
But not THT kind of, anger, fury, hate.
It's just..
Idk.
I just don't like it.
But I can't stop it from haunting me too.

Tht Hate, was actually Love.
Th hate for th one you love;

Love got transformed intuh Hate,
By th pain, th hurt,
Th cries, th tears.
Th lies, th fears.

---

Hebe's new album's songs jitao maximum nice! (Y)
Idc about th money tht I need tuh save ah,
I swear I will buy her album.
LOL.

Album name: To Hebe.

第一波主打 - LOVE!

HEBE 田馥甄 HUAT ARRRR!!!!! \m/ ^_^ \m/

我爱你你爱她她爱她她爱他
你爱我我爱他他爱他他爱她

咦? 怎么这世界已经没有人相爱
怎么这世界每个人都不快乐
怎么这世界每个人都爱别人
不爱自己

咦? 怎么这世界已经没有人相爱
怎么这世界每个人都不快乐
怎么这世界每个人都爱别人
不爱自己

Hebe say,
This song,
Is a very simple, yet meaningful song.
Lyrics damn short and simple,
But it clearly states th reason why people cry,
Why is everyone(most/some) unhappy.
And hope everyone will think about it,
Think about th problems in relationship,
Maybe things can change and more people'll be happy! :D

---

AND OMG SORRY SIDE TRACK ABIT,
SELINA GETTING MARRIED NEXT YEAR.
HUAT AR.
I LOVE YOU SELINA!!! (Y)
HEHEHE.

Omfg seriously.
Though S.H.E macam seperated...
BUT I STILL LOVE THEMMMM!
Omg, Selina xing fu ar!!
And she's alr hosting Guess,
Though I don't like this new style of Guess anymore...
But Selina is awesome! :D

Hebe successfully recorded her first album,
And had lots of great and positive comments! YAY.
Madloves her songs and voice.
I can really love her forever la siak!! ^^

And Ella's filming shows and stuffs,
She loves acting~ (Y) BAIK.
Hope she don't film halfway thn shout say tired again, LMAO.
So keai pl0x!!

MAN, THEY'RE 3 AWESOME GIRLS!
Though they're th best together,
But while seperated, doing stuffs they like and prefer,
Is of cos good for them (Y)
They happy jiu hao!! Heh!

---

Ok back on Hebe's song....

This is her MV BTS.
Fucking heartpain!!
Why like tht ):
Poor Tien fu zhen.
Heartpain arrrrr ))))':
And th guy ar, sibeh don't give face!
Hebe is like tht one marhzscx.
Heh, I love her for who she is.
( Even though she broke my heart this year during AS T.T )
Director say 'Cut' nia jitao stand and walk, wtf?
-.-

---

田馥甄 - 寂寞寂寞就好

還是原來那個我不過流掉幾公升淚所以變瘦
對著鏡子我承諾遲早我會還這張臉一堆笑容

不算什麼愛錯就愛錯
早點認錯早一點解脫

我寂寞寂寞就好這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了想到快瘋掉
死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了賴著不放掉
人本來就寂寞的借來的都該還掉
我總會把你戒掉

還是原來那個你是我自己做夢你有改變什麼
再多的愛也沒用每個人有每個人的業障因果

會有什麼什麼都沒有
早點看破才看得見以後

我寂寞寂寞就好這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了想到快瘋掉
死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了賴著不放掉
人本來就寂寞的我總會把你戒掉

Suit people who just fell out of love.
(Y)

---

And I realise I can hear th difference in Hebe's voice.
Like from S.H.E's debut album, till now.
I know which is old song, and new song.
Even if Idk th title.
Like, omg only.
(Y)
Her voice forever so special!

I start tuh love them tht time,
Alr can differentiate all their voices very clearly liao.
S & H's harder, but I can~ Heh.

---

Enough.
Whatever tht's happening,
Is making my brain tuh force my heart intuh things I can't do.
I need a bloody fucking PEACEFUL BREAK.
Knnia.

-_-

---

And I still love S.H.E more than anyone.
Th love.
Never fading,
Never faltering,
Never ending.
Ever lasting.
No pain, no hurt, no tears.
Only love, and smiles, and misses.
(Y)

Did I mention I was pekcek whn this song came out of SHERO?
I JITAO DK WTF THEY SAYING!!!
But I learnt this song in a day -_-
Which day?
SHERO Autograph session.
Whole day, minus away th time whn th crews haven't reach,
Thn haven't get in th barrier tuh queue la,
Once get intuh th barrier at around 10?
Listen tuh th album non stop eh.
Until evening.
Who don't know how sing???? -_-
Laughs.

But tht day Idk how sing Ai jiu dui le.
SIEH WASTED!!
Only sang SHERO with S.H.E (L)_(L)
*-*
Say until them, I miss them alr
-_-

But I rather they don't come Singapore.
Fucking tiring eh!!!!
LOL.

---

Anyway random abit.
I'm bankruptttttttt againnnnn !@$!@%@%@!&^^&#@^#&#$&@#^!@$!@$ -'-
LOL.

Need buy earstud, new necklace, and To Hebe.
Omg.
And I'm gna pass sw her 35 bucks tht's with me asap.
I don't like tuh hold ontuh money tht's not mine.
Sieh gaowhey.
LOL.

OHWELL.
And.
I WILL BE MOTHER FUCKING PISSED, SUPER UBER PISSED,
If I missed 11/11/11; 11:11:11 next year.
SO MANY 111111111111111.
Diu! LOL.
Rather sad tht th year 1111 is over!
Fucking cool ar jitao is 11/11/1111. LOL.
I want 66/66/6666; 66:66:66.
But cannot have T.T
LOL.

K la, I alot crap, heh.
BYE!

---

If you're trying tuh make me hate you,
I guess you're doing it right.
If you're not,
Thn I guess I'm starting tuh hate you at times.
Not tht I hate you, but I hate you.
Ok nobody will get it this time round.
Jitao -___-???? only.
Laughs.

---

And I wonder...
If we'll be friends again..
Or even, ever be like what we used tuh be again,
And meetup, just tuh fool around again, laughing...

Songs tht reminds me of you,
So many, so much.
Sometimes your smile flashes pass my eyes.
Tht cute smile, tht awesome smile.
And your voice, sometimes it rings in my ears whn I miss you.

We'll never be th same again..

Only if you were tuh trust me more..
Only if you didn't see me th way you're seeing me now.
I swear on my whole life tht I didn't do anything on purpose.
Like seriously -_- Sigh.
This is super stupid and silly for me tuh be doing.. But..
I'll still be here w opened arms, waiting for us tuh be friends again..
Tuh be there for you, tuh walk anything through with you if you need someone,
With my love, my care, my concern, my true friendship and awesome hugs in hands,
For you tuh smile again.

Days we had weren't much,
Times we spent together were even lesser,
But those moments could easily own th world.

---

Tht's whn I miss you.
Whn I don't,
All I remember is how deep tht knife in your hand stabbed through me.

I'm being random.

2010-09-10T03:20:00.012+08:00

Th truth,
Is being twisted.

I wanted tuh do this post in a 'serious' manner...
But this is seriously.... LOLOLOL.
CHECK IT OUT LIKE SERIOUSLY.

YOU'LL CHOKE TUH DEATH WHILE LAUGHING, BUT W NO REGRETS.

Fuck man.
Go check it out.
Jitao (Y) HUAT AR HUAT AR HUUUUUAAATTT AR !!!
Diu ! GET A ROOM , MATE .
Hotel 81 , 1 hour 10 bucks only , cheapcheap la siak !!
OR GO HOME , FUCKING , GO HOME .
OR MAYBE EVEN A FRIEND'S HOUSE ? LOL .
Ohwell , though tht's kinda bad ...
BUT STILL .
This is disturbing tuh th maximum larhszxc !

Ok back tuh serious mood :D

Firstly.
I'm in a random mood.
And Idk why,
But I've been thinking alotalotalot these days.
I've come tuh realize alot of stuffs,
About how narrow minded people can be,
Or how shallow they are.
How judgemental human beings can get.
But still.
NOT TH POINT.
Jeez, I hate how I always side track so naturally, nabehz.

Well anyway.
As you can see from THT picture above....

I'm sorry.

Sorry..?
'Why sorry?', you ask.

Oh, you'll regret getting curious as for why, 'sorry'.
Cuz a whole big chunk of alphabets is here tuh explain, again.

Ah, whatever.
LOL.
This is so-not-serious-mood la.
I can never blog in a serious 'mode'.
Always talk rubbish, kanasai.

Ok so..

Hold on.
A stick of cigarette & continue HJDMX tuh unclog my brain for awhile.
Old problem, I always have too much tuh say.
And whn I wna type it out...
It's clogged up.
Nehz.

BRB.

Ok hold on.
Mum just told me GZJD's ep 14 is out,
And it's mad awesome.
I'm gna note down th ep and timing of HJDMX thn watch GZJD.
HOLY FUCK!! HEH.
I'm gna drag this post soooo long.
Maybe by th time I submit it...
It's like, 7am? LOL.
HEH.

OKAY BACK IN A MOMENT.. Or a quarter of an hour.
:D

AISEH.
Mum and I has linked minds.
She just took a piece of mooncake intuh her room.
Thn I went out tuh cut a quarter out of a new piece.
LOL.
I went in tuh tell her I took a quarter,
Thn she's like, aiyo, I just took a new piece in ley.
LOL.
Same moment eating th same thing.
AISEH. (Y)
I love you mum, HEH.

---

I know this is mad random...

But.
I wna apologize.

Sorry, tuh my friends.
Friends tht I neglected.
Friends tht cared.
Friends tht were there,
But I didn't even bother.
Friends tht really treated me well,
But I didn't see it.
Friends tht were always there,
But I behaved like I didn't need it.

I'm sorry,
If I left or neglected or drifted from you,
For someone else, or something else.
Something/someone else tht doesn't even care for me.
Sorry for everything I did.
Or like...

Idk.

I remember telling bee tht,
True friends like her are hard tuh find.

It's like,
2 friends, close and stuffs.
But drifted.. Maybe due tuh busy life etc..

Thn whn A needs someone tuh talk tuh,
A approaches B.

Normal people who doesn't think much, ( Most )
Will think tht A is making use of B.
Like, never care B alr, now need someone, thn wna find B.
Y'know..

But B, was still there, tuh listen, tuh care, tuh advice..
At times chatting and still laughing like before.

I'm thankful for friends like this..
Yeahh... Thanks and sorry.
(:

And..
Idk why.
But I think I owe an apology tuh some people??
LOL.
I feel like it, but idk why am I apologizing.
It's like..
Though I swear I honestly didn't do anything tuh harm or what,
But y'know.
Different people have different ways of judging,
Or have different perspective la.
So yeaaa..

There're so many ways tuh look at things.
Even just an ant.

Some people think they're irritating.
Some people think they're cute??? ._. ( LOL )
Some people think killing them is just what we should do.
Some people think killing them is just so sinful.
Some people think killing ONE of them, is just nothing.
Cuz there's like so many of them?!
But some people can think tht, every single one of them,
Is precious?
Just like human.
Every single one of us, be it good or bad.
Every one is important.
So maybe tuh th 'ants world', every single one, is important?
And whn we kill them without thinking, just tuh stop it from irritating us,
Their 'ant world' is lika ' OMFG YOU KILL MY PAPAMAMADIDIMEIMEIUNCLEAUNTY!!! '
Y'know...

YOU GET WHAT I MEAN LA, RIGHTRIGHTRIGHT? LOL.

Ohwell.

Anyway, mainpoint is.
I'm sorry.

Maybe sorry for once stepping intuh your life,
Maybe sorry for hurting or harming you unknowingly.
Maybe sorry for my words whn I was raging in anger?
Maybe sorry for my existance?
Maybe sorry for my character, my attitude?
Maybe sorry for my actions?
Maybe sorry for taking you for granted?
Maybe sorry for hating you in th past w my rubbish character, for no reason?
Idk.
There's so much...?
Whatever it is.

I'm sorry.
And I've thought through.
Thought through so much.
Sorted my mind out and I've learnt something new again.
Yeaaa laaaaa.
I love learning la.
LOL.

Ohwell.

Whatever.

Just get what I wna say can alr.

And.
I wna apologize..
Tuh people who I'm gna 'hurt'?
Idk if it's considered hurt? Lol.
Erm..
Does something lika.. Erm.
Ok, eg, leaving and lying about th reason, counts as hurting?
LOL.
Idk ar.
But y'know.
I'm sorry.
'Cuz I'm gna lie.
I see no point in it anymore.
Yeah, point point point.
All I see is point.

I'm being selfish this time.
I lost th.. Reason.
And I realized so much about everything.
And I can say, this is crappy enough.
I'm a Taurus.
Ugly stuffs can never go intuh my mouth.
Bad stuffs can never stay around.
I run away from them as if it's a kazua chasing me.
Well, if you've seen my reaction towards cockroaches....
You'll know.
LOL.

对不起, tuh everybody tht I owe one.

---

I can't text.
I can't tell it directly.
I'm afraid things will get twisted and blow up th wrong way.
So y'know.
Here.

I tweeted this few just now.
I'm gna add somemore in.
Yeahh...

No names're being mentioned.
So y'know.
Ya.

There's something I wna tell you. ( There's more than one. )
Idk if you'll know it's you.
But look ok..
I hope you'll be happy,
And always be positive.

Never fall, and cry.
Stand up again cuz y'know you can.
I can't text you.
I'm afraid it'll be twisted and things'll blow up in th wrong way..

Think whatever you want.
Think about how fake this is, tuh you,
How stupid this is.
How fuckup I am.
Whatever la -.-

It's fine.
Just remember, never give up.
Always work for happiness.
And never lose confidence.
Low self esteem is th ultimate killer.

Always remember you're worthed it.
And don't blame yourself if you hurt someone.
Some things can't be predicted.
Always look forward, and never look back.
Lastly,
Take fucking bloody good care of yourselves.
Please be healthy, lol.
Weather cold, or raining, get yourself an umbrella or jacket.
Avoid walking under th rain.
Weather hot, drink more water, rest more.
Smoke lesser, eat regularly.
Don't hurt yourself, be more careful whn you're outside.
Love life, enjoy life.

*This is NOT only for 1 person.*

---

THT'S ALL.
OMG GZJD JUST FINISHED.
WALAOOOO!!!!
BLOODY FIRST PRINCESS JI KAOPEH YI XIA!
Evil biatch! -'-

LOLOL.

OKAY.

Gna blog about tuhday.

Tuhday.
Morning, slept at 9am.
Climbed out of bed at 4plus or 5?
Washed up, bathed etc, ate macs.

MY MAC SPICY.
HUAT AR!!!
HEH.

Yesterday night bug mother for it one :D
HEEEE (L)

Ok thn, around 8plus?
Last minute decided tuh go CS.
Went out with sis, went CS meet Jun.
Had dinner at Sakae.

Ordered lots of salmon, maguro.
LMAO.

Idk we go there is eat sushi or eat sashimi.
Wtf.

HAHA.

Went for pool at safra afterwards.
As usual.
I was th joke of th game.
Forget stripe or solid.
Arbo is hit everything right, but th ball just won't bloodyyy go in.
Keep hit until cu-corner.
URGHHHH.
IRRITATING!!!
Hahaha, but had loads of laughters!

Walked home after 1 hour something from safra with sis and J.
(:

Reach home straight pekcek.
But, oh wells..... Ahahahahaha.

Pictures for th day.

Spicy tunaaaaaaa.....

Mountain of Spicy Tuna/Maguro (Y)
From like 8 pieces of sushiii~ HEHEHEH.
I ordered salmon la...
But they say no more -.-
JI SAD.
Salmon sweeter!! ):

HAHAHA. My 7 plates.
And mountain full of tuna (Y)
Ikr stupid face. Who cares.
I had fun, heh.

Candid by J.

Candid too.
Why my necklace like so shiny!!! (Y)

Was staring at air. LOL.

My plates~

Took this while waiting for 8 at inter before heading tuh Safra~

---

Anyway this was taken yesterday....
Or tuhday? I forgot.

I was being bored.
Yea you can easily see from it -.-
Who th hell camwhores in front of their own computer?
-_-

---

Randomly bored.
So I post these lyrics.
Lol.

你答應我的我都記得,
但是你卻忘了你的承諾.
不是說好彼此都不再聯絡,
誰都別再犯錯.
是我的固執讓你難過,
但是分手卻也無法選擇.
我走了以後, 你要好好生活,
不要想我, 也別再哭了.. ~

---

This is nice! (:

---

...
Oh and.
Hu jiao da ming xing de stupid plot...
I WATCH UNTIL PEKCEK!!!
PISS ME OFFSZXC!
Hahahaha.
But I like th songs ley!!!

蔡卓妍 - 愛贏才會拼!
Ah Sa fucking cute!!!
HAHAHA.

I love her accent la siak! (Y)

Mike's singing finally improve liao siak.
Last time is............
LOL.
I know jitao still like cmi.
But like, got his style!!!
HAHA.

And this uh.
Fuck it man.
Idk why...
All th full songs tht I found,
Youtube blocked -.-
For copyrights ground alibaba ice kachang hot dog sausage la.
Kns.

呼叫大明星 , 插曲; 蔡旻佑 - 走.

Bear with it eh.
It's nice!
(Y)

And this (Y)

紅花樂團 - 悄悄話; 呼叫大明星 , 片尾曲.

Alright!
It's 6.15am now!
Bye! (Y)

---

Sometimes I wished I could stop time from going on,
Sometimes I wished I could go back tuh th past.
But,
Sometimes I wished I could just Ctrl+Z every mistake I made.

As easily as I do on my keyboard..
Just, undo everything......
Every, single thing...

Sigh.

Idk what should I put as a title ._.

2010-09-09T05:50:00.005+08:00

Sie töteten mich.
It's like a dream, yet so painful.

Neh.
I had lots of things tuh say.....
But as usual la,
My rubbish pattern...
Now mind blank again.
LMAO.

Anyway, a pic before I went off tuh vivo days ago.

And this pic, took today.
Random pic in kitchen, with my dinner.
Rawrszxc!

---

I've something tuh tell afew people.
I know it's probably th worst shit ever.
Like wtfuck.

They'll probably feel weird if they ever see this.
Well I certainly hope they don't, ever see it.
But somehow I just need somewhere tuh say these stuffs.

I'm sorry, I've gone mad, somehow.
Heh.

Dedications tuh 3 person.

Don't bother reading.
It won't concern you.
Lol.

Tuh my mum:

'Everytime whn I feel sad, or moody, etc,
I will not even have th mood tuh give a short response.
But whnever I see my mum,
Or rather, whnever I'm sad,
I tend tuh go over tuh my mum's room and look for her.
Be it just tuh sit there and watch some show with her,
Or, whatever.
I just smile and cheer up instantly.
Nobody has ever done tht tuh me.
My mother, is like my everything.
Without her, I think I alr died.
Whn everybody has given up on me,
My mum didn't.
She gave me chances over and over again,
Just hoping I will learn from my mistakes.
I thank her alot, but I dare not tell her.
Damn paiseh one ar, heh.

So many things happened these few years.
Ups and downs.

I bet most of my friends only know about how 'bad' my mum is tuh me?
Cuz I only complain about how she attitude me, etc..
I've never twitted or say about how good she treats me,
And stuffs.

Just like how people blame God for bad life,
But had never thanked God for their happy times.
Hahahaha.

Not gna elaborate much,
But main point is...
All I'm gna do now,
Is all for her (:'

Tuh my sister:

'I didn't really bother about my sister, like, yeah...
Yeahh.. We have awesome times together.
But at certain period of time in my life,
I don't really care about her.
LOL..
But ever since she decided tuh go tuh USA for 3 months,
I sticked tuh her everyday and night.
Stay in her room until I fall asleep ._.
Thn whn she left for USA, I'm lika sad ):
Lonely life laaaaa.
Heh.

But things got better, thn slowly never care again, LOL.

Come tuh think of if,
Since young, everytime I got problem,
I approach my sister first :x Heh.
She's like my saviour!!
Like for dk how many million times alr!
I love my sister liao la! :D HEH.'

And..
Tuh th man who I've never mentioned most of th time.
My dad.

Some people even thought tht I was from a single-parent family~
See how much I mention my dad.
Hahahaha.

Dad, though you've alr given up on me,
Like don't really give a shit about me and stuffs.
Things I've done this few years disappointed you alot.
I know.
Who doesn't know?
People all scolded me, tried tuh wake me up.
But I didn't.

Now I alr did.
Trying tuh do th things tht I should do,
So you can 'regain' hope on me again.

---

Anyway been chionging Hu jiao da ming xing~
KIDNAP SCENE LEY!!!
DE XIN JI SMART, MADLOVES!!!!

---

Cb!!!!
I accidentally screwed my post below.
FUCK.

---

Anw I just puked.
Wtf.
-_-
Red stuffs and lots of water.
Starting I shocked, why red.
End up remember is taiwan sausage LOLOL.
Gek until eyes teary and red like mad.
Throat super pain.

Stomach damn screwed.

My stomach really got problem ZZZZ.
Ohwell, I screwed it up myself, my bad.
Haaa.

---

Anw I'll try tuh recall what I typed..

I said tht..

Things, sometimes, start and end, for th same reason.

Like, eg.
You know A cuz of B.
Like, know A through B.
Thn y'know, stop contacting A cuz of B too.
Something like tht la.

Thn, like.

I suck at clean cuts.
Like really.
Taurus are mad afraid of changes as well.
But I'm gna be different.
I'm gna be flexible.
For once.

Just for myself.
I want a peaceful life.
Awesome life.
Just an average, normal life.
A life tht everybody leads.
Sometimes stupid quarrels between friends crops up,
But it'll eventually be solved and things go back tuh th same again.

I'm gna master clean cut-ing skills, LOL.
What english is this, ah I don't give a shit la.
LOL.

Anw.

I've decided tuh keep everything tuh myself,
And move on in life.

Go back tuh life tht I was leading.
I rather be lonely, and bored,
Than life with lots of problems.
And fears.

Sleeping with fears, waking up in pain and being afraid.
I don't like tht feeling.
It feels like I'm not myself.
It's not good.

And,
I asked a friend something quite some time ago.
I asked if she'll choose Family or Friendship.
She told me Family; It's always there.
I agreed, almost immediately, I might say.
But I wasn't sure what tuh do.
Cuz it wasn't just Friendship at tht point of time.
But now tht I'm thought through things,
I've decided.
(:

Sometimes I really dk what I should do,
Or what I really want.

I know what I'm supposed tuh do.
But I can't bring myself tuh do it.
It's like, I just don't like it, at all?

I feel like my life is pointless?
I don't go school anymore, I don't work.
I don't do anything tht's productive.
I just waste my life away everyday.
Taking money from my mother,
Thinking it's easy money, whn it, obviously isn't.
Things like tht, y'know...
I feel really bad.
But, oh well.. I'm gna make up for it. (:
I promise~

Now I just wna keep studying.
Study like crazy, like mad.
Indulge myself in books and words and formulas.

I'll keep it deep down, inside.
Somewhere there, in a dark corner, so insignificant.
And never mention anything, any, shit tuh anyone.
Never mention anybody tuh anyone tht I meet in future.
Hopefully, luckily, tuh forget it myself, too.
I'll just let it rest and take a break too.

Bee asked me tuh take a break off everything.
I said I did, and I don't wish tuh, anymore.
But now, I've cleared everything tht was messing me up.
I'll take a break.
(:

Everybody needs a period of time off rubbish.
I guess it's time for mine? (:

I'm tooo sick and tired of things like this.
Things tht happens without a proper reason.
Everything's explained with a 'idk' 'idk' 'idk'.
I hate things without a proper explanation.
Tuh me, it's stupid.
And I won't want my life tuh be led this way, obviously.

And yeah.
I guess tht's all.
I forget liao laaaa.
LOL..

And I think I'm madly weird somehow.

I was supposed tuh feel anger, sadness, and stuffs, then.
But all I was thinking, was 2 things.
1; 'Wtf just happened? Damn random.'
2; It's been so long, my dear. I missed your voice.
Was thinking about you just moments ago, now you're here.

See?
I think I need a doctor y'know.
-_-
I was supposed tuh feel anger -_- Omg.

Whatever.
I'm gna be happy.
I know I can.

---

And on a random side note~~~~

If I ever fell asleep while texting you;
Or if I ever dragged a phone call with you,
Like if you wna end it, but I keep dragging and dreading tuh end it,
It just meant tht I didn't wanted tuh say goodbye.
If I've ever talked tuh you despite not feeling like chatting,
Or despite being tired, tuh th extent of crying,
As in like, tears flowing out of my tired eyes,
It just means, you meant something tuh me.

Or,
If I get motherfucking paranoid for you;
Or I scold you for not contacting me,
Or I get angry at you for going MIA on me,
Whatever la.
It's just because you mean something tuh me.
Lol.

I mean, common sense.
Who'd actually bother wasting time on people who you don't give a shit for?
LOL.

I'd rather spend those time tuh sleep ar.
Shit also can -_-
Even stone.

And I told bee.
I rather meet people who truly wants tuh see me,
Truly wants tuh chat with me,
And catch up with me,
Than people who doesn't seem tuh give a shit about my presence.
No matter how important tht someone is,
If they don't give a shit about you,
Don't give them any shit too.
Bird shit dog shit cat shit hamster shit human faeces,
ALL DON'T GIVE AR.

Meet th ones who really care.
You might not have th chance again.
You won't know what's gna happen next.
You'll regret.

Living life is actually quite simple.
Make sure you don't live and leave with regrets.
Tht feeling, sure do suck.

If wishes really would come true,
I'd really wish for a happy-jiu-hao life.
It's so awesome, isn't it?

Oky.
I should really end this post.
And go tuh bed.
I'm damn tired and super not feeling well.
Kaninia eh!!!

PUKI MAKAU LOBANG SQUARE!!!!
LMAOLMAOLMAO!!!

I met bee just now tuh catch up.
And we laughed a whole lot.
She taught me tht sentence too.
I laugh until seh tired.
Heh.

She almost bbq me.
-.-

Flick butt dk how flick,
Flick until playground on th th shelter thn drop down.
Lucky my leg was abit slant,
ARBO DROP ON MY LEG STRAIGHT.
I still saw th 'fireworks' whn th butt landed.
I straight WAAAAA WAAAAA WAAAAAAA WAAAAA WAAAAAAAAAA all th way
LMAO.
Kept laughing LOL.

And she kept ' YOUR MUM ' me!!!
Asshole eh you, DIUUUU YOU.
LOL.

Thn went home, afterwards bibi wanted meet me at 880 with M and B.
But I lazy ar, plus bee went ehub meet M Z and co.
Thn I didn't go down, heh.

Thn nua at sister's room etc.
Until 1plus thn went over my room.
Jitao shiok ar.
I never fail tuh fall asleep on my sister's bed!!!
HAHA.
(L)

---

I've transferred some of th pictures intuh my phone.
I'll look at them and miss those laughters.

I'll miss those quarrels I always see,
Those rubbish jokes,
Etc.

I'm sure things, places, words, songs, people,
Will remind me of those happy times.
It might hurt some times.
But it's inevitable ar.
It's fine, cuz it's my past, and I will accept all of my past,
Despite it being really bad.

And I'll be myself.
Bee told me tuh be myself and accept everything.
Yeah, accept it. (:

烏雲遮蔽了天空窗外又是陰雨時候
傘下的戀人中不再有你我手牽手
一切過了太久
我們的十字路口下一站是誰在等候
你我的方向盤卻向著相反的彼岸
終點還是分開
告別你我離開之後
這回憶可以保留當初那美好的感動
你說你記住了不為彼此難過
過各自的生活

oh baby~~
你答應我的我都記得
但是你卻忘了你的承諾
不是說好彼此都不再聯絡
誰都別再犯錯是我的固執讓你難過
但是分手卻也無法選擇
我走了以後你要好好生活
不要想我也別再哭了
轉載來自 ※Mojim.com　魔鏡歌詞網

我們的十字路口下一站是誰在等候
你我的方向盤卻向著相反的彼岸
終點還是分開
告別你我離開之後
這回憶可以保留當初那美好的感動
你說你記住了不為彼此難過
過各自的生活
oh baby~~
你答應我的我都記得
但是你卻忘了你的承諾
不是說好彼此都不再聯絡
誰都別再犯錯是我的固執讓你難過
但是分手卻也無法選擇
我走了以後你要好好生活
不要想我也別再哭了

---

'Goodbye to you my trusted friend.'
Westlife ; Seasons in the sun.

---

Anyway, short post.

Went down qt hawker meet arron darren gabriel junming and yongsheng few days back.
Thn went over holland v slack awhile.
Thn went over hawker meet barry and carabelle.
Met uncle steven too.

Thn awhile, idk what time ar.
Arhjas michelle wilson jingyi came over as well.
Sat at table eat talk chat etc.
It was raining th whole day, mad cold!

Talk rubbish until like, idk what time.
Thn left holland.

While walking tuh busstop, heard this song playing at some shop.
Sang it with afew of them.
Like fun only, ahahahaha.

Went over cw with A D Ys.

Awhile, Farah came down, like finally!!!!
Thn slack until around 11.23pm?
Ys left halfway.
Chatted and stuffs as usual la.

Thn trained back, bused home.
Tht's all.

Th day before yesterday, ( Now is thursday :D )
Went out with mum and sy for breakfast at 4pm plus.
Ate liao, walk around buy stuffs etc abcdefg.
Went over coffee bean stone and stuffs.
Thn finally, mum wna go home le.
So went over tuh Clementi meet Boteo, Henry & th usual BCDHJy.
Slack at clementi.
B and C left around 9plus?

Thn slack with th remaining...
Until arrr.
Around 10pm?
Went over station meet Jonathan and another 2 of his friends.
Thn went arcade awhile.
Thn I left with D H and Jy.
Trained back home.
Reached home around 11.50pm.
Huat ar.
Early siak, heh heh.

Tht's all~

Long post.
Tsk.
I'm naggy and long winded laa~~
Heh.

BUHBYEZ.

'Let's go all th way, tonight. No regrets, just Love.'
This will always remind me of tht day.
Th day we all had.
Tht day whn nothing was wrong and everyone was only busy laughing.

---

Goodbye.
Gna rest.
SLEEP TILL I SHIOK ARRR.
Macdonalds for breakfast later!
Macspicy :D
I bugged mum for it, HAHAHA.

---

I'm thinking if I should discuss about it with some people,
Or just do it.

---

Shall we make a deal?
Tuh meet again a year later or so, on this same date.
9th September 2011? 2012?
Idk.

We'll see how I feel or what new stuffs comes tuh my mind on a new day,
After I wake up later!
:DD

---

I hate false facts.

---

And don't even think you know what I'm thinking.
I don't really lie.
But I'm good at keeping things tuh myself.
I didn't lie.
I just didn't voice out everything I felt.
Like, what's th point?
I don't see th point??????

Taurus do things for th things they get in return.
So whn there's no point, they won't even give a crap.
(:

And of cos.
I thank you for those times.
I know this whole thing is a goner.

We're walking back on th road where we met on.
Everything's undo-ing itself.
Or rather you're undo-ing it.
Everything's back tuh how it was months and months back.

Guess this should be another clean cut?

It's been so long since I had a cleancut.
More than a year or two.

This is a good training for myself.
Tuh forget.
Been so long since I am made tuh face this 'forgetting' thing.
Ahahaha.

I don't care already.

Starting, damn sad.
Thn cry.
Thn anger overwhelmed me, cuz I felt tht pain, how much it hurt.
Thn hate overtook me, cuz I didn't know why did this happen tuh me.
Thn numbness knocked on my door for a visit, cuz tht pain went over my limit.
Thn a wakeup call rang, and I came back tuh reality.

I'm awake now.
I'm fine.
I'll be happy again.

Bye.

Happy Birthday Bee.

2010-09-07T02:02:00.003+08:00

This is my beeloved.
It's been more than a year since we knew each other.
It felt like decades since we last met,
And felt like centuries since we knew each other.
LOL.

Hi.

Beebee, I'm sorry for th late post!
Been going out too much ):
I not bo xim okay!
Wo ai ni hen duo!!

This week must meet me liao hor.
Wo bu guan ni da xiao jie how busy ar.
:D

HEH.
Meet me with your cockster; my bibi la!
I miss you all like seriously alot please.
):

And of cos,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TUH YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TUH YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TUH YOUUUUU~~~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TUH YOU.

I'm here tuh wish my beeloved a happy life ahead,
Awesome love life, meet an awesome guy and marry him.
Become some shao nai nai and not cry over love anymore.
Also, healthy wealthy :D
Goodluck for your upcoming O's!

I'm gna take O's with Hunhun next year,
HEH HEH.
Maybe we all jump intuh same poly ley!!!
TEMASEK POLY OKOK? STEADY!!!
Near near for both of us, swee bo :D
( Oh jialat, I need move house by then liao ): )
Maybe I move go 899 :P
HEH.

Whn we in same school ar...
I'm gna meet you for...
Breakfast high tea lunch tea break dinner supper smoking break!!
SMOKING BREAK, MOST IMPORTANT, HAHAHA.
Thn I can walk you home thn I walk home too!
^^

Hao la, like so long winded, heh.

No matter what, MUST CHIONG CHIONG CHIONG FOR O'S K.
I wna see you land intuh a poly, I don't care!

And I wna announce tuh th whole world ar,

Lhy Clare,
Your Beebeeloved Woman,

IS ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU,
AND ALWAYS LOVING YOU,
ALWAYS CARING FOR YOU,
AND WILL NEVER FORGET YOU,

Tsh Eunice,
My Beebeeloved Alien Banana!

I hope this announcement will spread across th universe,
So everybody will know,
You have sucha goooooood bee.
( Though we drifted due tuh ~~our~~ your busy schedule.. )

Vivo days.

2010-09-06T03:55:00.003+08:00

There's nothing I can do,
So I'm gna wait till I get killed by these pain.

Okay.
Idk where tuh start from...
Lol.

Okay.

3rd september.
Went down Vivo tuh meet like 10 people at kopitiam.

Met Nicholas Darren and Wilson tuh smoke at carpark first.
Went back.
Met Arhjas Farah Feodore Felicia Joycelyn Junyang Jingyi.

Decided tuh watch Haunted Changi.
10bucks -_-

Went tuh Toyrus tuh wreck havoc while waiting for movie tuh start.

Watched movie and it's like...
Idk ar, LOL.
Kns I guess.
Some stuffs like too fake,
Some stuffs like ji real.
Ahahaha.

Idk ar, but afew parts I tio harng -_-
Cuz those sudden one.
Jingyi kept tio harng.
Farah super scared LOL.
Feodore jitao cried at 1 part.
Darren stone ._.
Arhjas keep tio shocked until face pale, HAHAHAH.

Finished thn went out stairs smoke and chill.
Some stuffs cropped up, but solved after awhile.
Went coffee shop eat thn slack till 10plus.

Split 2 tables cuz not enough sit.
Thn chatted with Farah Feodore and Jingyi.
Awhile stone and stuffs.
Listen song, blablabla.
Kupped with N and went home soon.
Homed, thn I forgot LOL.
Slept at 6plus 7 I think.

4th September, Saturday.

Supposed tuh go Marina Barrage as planned.
End up go Vivocity LOL.
Tsktsk.

Met A at skypark.
Thn F F N came over.
Smoked etc.
Thn went in look for B D Inri and YS I think.
Blablabla.
Forgot LOL.
Went around with A and Jy.
Camwhored.
LMAO.
I JITAO UNGLAM -_-
Got bad photographer :(

._.
Haven't prepare jiu snap, kns. -_-

I didn't want tuh take this photo...
Thn Aj jitao use her hand and grab me over -_-
My hairrrr............
Omg.

Jiaobin....
Ok.
Tiong hong face, LMAO.
AJ SAY ONE, KNNIA EH, HAHAHA.

-_-
SEE ?
NO SKILL PHOTOGRAPHER LA SIAK!!!!

Laughs.

Camwhored, thn all th way sat at sky park.
From 6 like tht till at night, forget what time.

A F F N and th rest went tuh eat,
While D I Ys and me stayed at skypark.
No money eat, all hungry ghost.
LOL.

Dk from where, C and another guy pop up again LOL.
Thn around 8 something,
Hp came over.

Alibaba slack etc.
Walked around, thn Aj and co finished eating.

Went toysrus wreck havoc round 2.
LMAO.

Thn went down tuh... Idk where.
Slack.
Until 10 like tht, left tht area.
B and C left for home.

Thn er.
Arhjas Darren Farah Feodore Huiping Jingyi Nicholas and me,
Went over tuh Feodore house area.
Slacked at usual spot etc.
Around 11.35pm left.
Cuz arbo I miss train or kena last train thn hongkan liao.

Walk halfway, got 3 police -.-
Kena screen.
I was like ' OMFG HONGKAN LIAO , MISS TRANSPORT LIAOOO '
End up, thanks tuh my bros and sists!
Police officers checked my ID first thn I went off first.
Didn't take th last train, hehe.
Was earlier than tht.

And I fucking hate Outram/Harbour front!
From NEL tuh WEL jitao DAMN FAR...
LOL.

Anw so, trained back home (:

5th September, tuhday.

Woke at like, idk, at 5something?
Like jump out of bed uh.
Prepared etc.

Wanted meet Bee cuz Aj said tuhday not slacking.
End up got meet lol.

So gna meet Bee next week? (:

Went over Redhill meet ABCDHJJyYs and another guy??? Lol.
Went tuh eat at hawker.
Thn went hawker behind slack and laugh etc.
Alot joke, ahahaha.
Kupped with Aj.

Went off tuh some, idk where tuh sit.
Wa hot yi xia, diu.
Laughs.

Around 9something,
B and C and th another guy went off.

Went over tuh some other place sit.
Chatted and stuffs.
10something left th place.
Jy went off after awhile.
Thn at bus stop talk blabla with ADH and J.
Waited for J mother tuh come fetch him,
Thn bused 147.

A alighted at somewhere tuh change bus.
Thn H and me alighted at commonwealth.
D went home.

Trained back.

Moodswing all th way, knnia eh.
Lol.
Fuck it.

I whole day was lika pekcek only, lulz.
-_-
Cuz of some stuffs uh.
Fucking ccb.
ZZZZZ.

Sua.

Anyway,
This few pictures,
Took quite long ago.
At holland with ABCDH.
Bo liao nothing do de hou guo, ahahahaha.
So yeaaaaaa.

Some so dumb, some quite nice, some ji funny!

Tht's all.
Byez.
I really used 1 hour as I predicted on twitter siak.
Ahahaha.

Kk bye.
It's 5.03am now~

One in a million,

2010-09-02T02:54:00.005+08:00

Once in a lifetime;
Sometimes, love can hit you every day,
Sometimes, you can fall for everyone you see,
But only one can really make me stay,
And it's you I see, bby.

Primary 1 or 3's memory song ar!!
Heh.

Everyday assemble in hall thn sing songs.
Madloves!!
LOL.

Everytime sing till damn happy HAHAHA.

HAHAHA.
Sieh zuay old songs!!!
LOL.

Whn my age was still a single digit,
They were those 'idol' kinda guys tuh me.
Nice songs, etc.

Now ._.
They're awesome, yea,
But so many new singers, they're like forgotten -_-

They're like old alr ._.
Middleagemensxxczxxzc. LOL..

Huat ar, 10 years passed so fast...

OKAY.
LOL.

Anyway,
I'm once again addicted tuh this song......

MAD AWESOME.
I still remember th lyrics so bloody clearly!
HEH.

Bye :D

Horoscope.

2010-09-01T17:52:00.003+08:00

Let fate decide;
When we'll love, and die.

Mother fuck.
I damn scared of September 2nd.

MY HOROSCOPE FOR TOMORROW.
WA.
I WNA SLIP INTUH COMA NOWNOWNOWNOWNOW!!!!

Friends certainly know how to get you all wound up. The planetary alignment brings up a tricky situation, in which you can decide to either take something further, or simply not bother at all. There seems to be no middle ground - no halfway house, no "lets see how we get on." Either you do or you don't. Take your time in order to choose wisely.

Ccb.
I hate choosing.
T.T

And friends tuh hurt me????
THIS IS MY WORST FEAR IN LIFE T.T
KANINAEHCHEEBAI.
LOL.

I most weak in this kinda things lol.
Jialat.
RABAK LA SIAK, ALURHS! - Farah teach one, LMAO.

Fuckfuckfuck ):

Anyway.
Tht day I was super bored.
Went tuh read other months' horoscope also.

September 2010:

Your axis of friends and lovers will be activated, Big Time, during September, Taurus.
( Hongkan, prepare longpia big time too. )

On the 8th, long-distance Jupiter will back up into Pisces and your house of friendships, toting distant memories of friends and lovers.

( Ah diu luh, memories again -.- )

On the 18th, startling Uranus will join him.
Between the two, there's just no doubt that you'll hear from someone you haven't seen or even thought of in years, or maybe even bump into them, entirely by "coincidence."

( Who siak!! Sibeh curious ._. I scared is someone I damn scared tuh rmb Lol )

On the 12th, Mercury will turn direct (finally!) in your house of lovers - so one of those "old friends" may suddenly feel more like a new lover.
( Ah this one more mother fucking rubbish. )
( Who siak -_- Why this year people from my past or what keep bomb me -_- )
( OSAMA AR -_- )

October, 2010

Your house of one-to-one relationships is about to be invaded by an extremely charming pair of planets, Taurus: loving, lovely Venus and red-hot, aggressive Mars, the type of duo who are absolutely impossible to refuse, no matter what they ask - or demand, in Mars' case. They'll be working together for just about all of October, and to make them even more magnetic, they'll both be wearing sexy, intense Scorpio - so if you're single, you really should be wearing a warning label. If you're attached, your partner probably won't want to go out much - for obvious reasons.
( Meaning ? ._. Warning label ._. Am I dangerous ? )
( Don't tell me I'm gna be a mother fucking flirt ._. LOL ... )

November jitao screw up.

November, 2010

Long-distance friends and maybe even ex-lovers will scoop up your time and energy this month, Taurus - perhaps so much that you'll need to do some thinking about both the past and the future. Loving Venus, your own planet, will turn direct on the 18th, after weeks of moving retrograde through your house of relationships. The same day, however - which is what will make things "interesting" - Jupiter, Mr. Far-Off places, people, and things - will also turn direct, in nostalgic Pisces, famous for remembering only the best of the past. Be honest with yourself before you see them.

( Diu lei lou mou uh!!!!! SEE, WHY ALL TH EX-EX-EX LIKE TUH BOMB ME !!! )

And my overall 2010 uh.
JI CLIFF HANGER YI XIA!!
Until I give a shit de part, CANNOT SEE LIAO.
NEED $$$$$$.

Speaking of water, from early September through the end of the year, Venus, the Goddess of Love, will tiptoe through sexy, intense Scorpio, bringing all signs the chance to make a wonderful first impression, no matter who you're meeting or why you want to put them under your spell.

If you're single, you should be careful not to toy with anyone's feelings.
If you're not truly interested, don't flirt - not even a little.
If you're extremely interested, go ahead and have at it!
You definitely won't be refused.

Wa diu, this is jialat.
Whn I want tuh love, I heartbreakid.
Whn Idw tuh love, you tell me I can love.
Diu -_-

Idk if this can be trusted la, duh. LOL.
But if is true ar, and if I wna be a bastard...
IT'S TIME FOR ME TUH FUCK EVERYONE UP, SIDE, DOWN.
LOL.

A New Moon in Virgo on September 8 will help you take control of paperwork and outstanding tasks. Venus and Mars will move to Scorpio and your relationship sector after the middle of the month. You'll be passionate and affectionate with the person you love. During the first two weeks, you'll seek perfection during romantic encounters.

Wa, don't tell me I'm gna love again.
I EMPTYHEART BEST LIAO PLS ._.
-_-

Wa, every month also heartbreak, enough liao laaa :@

---

Know more about Taurus :D

Taurus Key Words:

Strengths:
Dependable, patient, musical, practical.

Weaknesses:
Stubborn, uncompromising, possessive.

Charismatic marks:
Solid, big bones, tendency to gain weight.
( T.T, I LOVE FOOD, LMAO HEHEHE )

Likes:
Gardening, cooking, working with hands, music, romance, high-quality clothing.

Dislikes:
Sudden changes, complications, insecurity of any kind, synthetic fabrics.

Best environment:
A secluded home close to nature. Good food is also important. Beauty and comfort are a must.

K gna end abruptly here.
Zaijianbyebyesayonaraaaa.

Footprints,

2010-09-01T02:04:00.005+08:00

Every tear you drop,
Shows every inch you got torn apart inside.

But if you cry a river,
Please, see a doctor before your chest bursts open,
And th blood vessels go ooooozing with blood,
Flying around like a (L4D)Smoker's tongue.

Hi.
Just 2 hours ago.
I was having mad loads of things tuh say,
And share about ...
Yeah, th picture shows everything.
But y'know...
2 hours later, I'm just lazy -_-

So I shall just post a picture of my stupid face,
On th 21st of August :D
Th night my sis returned!
Heh.

Eh heh. I was bored.
Sis was unpacking..
And we were talking rubbish etc with J while waiting for K tuh come over..

---

I realized tht I love tuh start a post with like...
Pictures of sunset and sunrise and like, beaches?
Or like, nightsky, stars, moon, lightning? LOL.
I like nightsky th most, mad beautiful yet plain.
But I choose them according tuh my mood.
And..

This.
Is what I chose for tuhday.
I have no idea why, don't ask me.

I have a habit.
Tht I'll search for pictures tht my heart wants.
Thn post it as a starter for my post.
Sometimes I can even 'want' a purple sky kinda sunset?
Or like a, red-cloud-full-moon-nightsky picture.
It's stupid y'know.
But still, it's what I want.

K LA ALOT RUBBISH.
HEHEH.

K so, days' been.. Messedup somehow.
Well, still went down tuh slack as usual.
With ABCDFH. Sometimes J,Y,N,F.
Sometimes others, depends.

Went down Crescent slack with usual people,
Blablabla, thn went safra talk, thn homed.

Yesterday went down depot.
Went V house.
Met H and F at hawker and went over.
Stoned and stuffs, blablabla.

Thn went stairs and talked with DFHY.
Settled some stuffs and bla, whatever.
Lazy elaborate also.
I got kinda pekcek cuz of what D was insisting.
-_-
Keep threaten me by pulling my hairrrr -_-
Holyfuck, I hate it whn people touch my hair, LOL.

Went Safra, blablabla, thn homed.

Tuhday, went down Ghimmoh.
Met Abcdfh at block 12.
Went down Clementi.
Went up arcade awhile, saw W there,
Thn ananas for food.
Made H eat, hahahaha.

Went up lan for 1 hour.
Stone.

Got pwned in bs by AD.
HAHA.
H got bullied by CD in L4D versus mode.
Haa.

FN came over.
Left lan, BC left. W finished DotA and came down.
Thn went off with BC.

Proceeded tuh Safra with Adffhn for pool.
Sit at sofa all th way and talked etc.
Got bullied t.t

Left with DFH on 145.
Trained back, and homed.

---

Things screwed up before I left house today.
Urghz, hate tht feeling.
-.-

WELL ANYWAY.
TIME FOR MY DA DAO LI NIAM KENGZ.
NO INTEREST, DON'T READ K.
LOL.

---

Now I realized something so important.
I had a conversation tht went something like this..

Friend: But if tht happens, it'll be damn weird? Like, 1 person gone..
Me: Thn just live life like how you did before she came in your life this time?

At tht moment, I thought..
'It's easy what..'

But I was so, fucking, wrong.
It's never easy tuh let someone tht meant something tuh you, go.

Once people stepped intuh my life,
And maybe even had a certain value tuh me, or played an important role,
Or even got this 'My most important person' place in my heart,
And LEFT for some reason, mostly drifts, or other reasons..
I'd never passed in psycho-ing myself.
Tuh live like I did in th past (Past; before those 'people' stepped in) again.

Footprints they left on my life-journey;
Th routes we walked together,
Th rubbish we did as a group/pair,
Th jokes we cracked and laughed together,
Th problems we solved or shared with each other,
Th time we spent together,
Th little time where we share our most-inner-feeling,
Th places we've been tuh,
Th inside jokes/words we had,
Th usual places we always go tuh,
Th things we always do whn we're together,
Th 'signals' tht we all know what they mean, and no one elses knows.

They all, will still, and always be there.
No matter what.

It's like a bed of soft sand.
Once you walked across it, your footprint is there.
And if you want tuh 'live like you DID before crossing it',
You have tuh walk back on th same bed of sand.
And th bed of sand, will never be th same.
Never be th same, as in th looks; footprints to and fro,
And, ok, this is dumb but, eg, 'th sand feels th pain whn you step on them.'
Y'know, like how you actually affect and what impact you had,
Whn you crash/walk/fly/run/bomb/get intuh someone's life, or even heart.

It doesn't hurt whn someone gets intuh your life,
Cuz everyone feels it, everyday, everywhere.
Just, made not tuh feel tht pain upon your entry..
But whn tht someone wna leave and 'go back tuh life without you',
They walk back on th path where they came from,
And tht's whn it hurts, stepping on 'th bed of sand'.
Kinda complicated, but if y'know what I'm saying, good for you.
Ahahaha.

I've came tuh realize so many things this few days.
From advices tht I hear from people,
Thoughts and opinions, everything.

Always remember something;
Life, never shortchanges you.
It's something like,
If someone leaves, someone new will come tuh you.
It doesn't happen in a 'purposely-done' kinda way.
Everything happens naturally.
Always remember this.

Some even say, 'God take people away from you, cuz He thinks it's time tuh give you a better one.'
Y'know those sort of things, twitter, blabla retweets, they're everywhere.

And I feel like some nun or something.
I have no hate, no anger now.
Mad awesome temper management.
I think it's really good! :D

But 1 bad thing caused by th impact blown on me few days back.
My sadistic side is back -_-
I seriously want tuh just, fuck it off.
Damn irritating.
But still... Blood tastes nice.. ( Ok wtf. )

---

Lastly.
I wna say tht.
It's not tht I don't give a shit tuh fight for what I want.
It's tht if I'm fighting for something tht doesn't want me,
Thn why fight? Fight with air?

Still.
Love her well, treat her good, and be happy.
I'm always here, if you need me.
Always will give you th best company, advices, etc.

I'm not angry anymore.
Ohwell, I wasn't even angry from th start.
I was sad, lolol.

Even cried whn I mentioned what happened.
Tried tuh hold it back, cuz there were a number of people there...
But still -_- Lol.
Tht showed how badly I was hurt by your actions and words.
But it's okay.

I should put myself in your shoes and understand, yea?
Different people have their own ways of solving things,
Different ways of getting what they want or need, alibaba ice kachang.
Y'know it.
But sometimes...
Even understanding everything and doing my part,
People don't see it.
They want people tuh understand and go their way so much at times,
Tht they forget tht th others need understanding too.
Understand how far people can go for your own benefits.
You're already considered blessed if people actually will give a shit.
So, slow down your pace, or even take a step back.
Relac 1 corner and THINK, reflect.

Cherish and love everything.
Treat people right, not just th one you love with all your life.
Your family, friends, alibaba doraemon.

I did it, and I felt so much nicer, better.
(:

---

Tuh you:
Idk what tuh say, ahahaha.
Just wna thank you for your time,
And for being there.
Your company and stuffs.
Those fun, laughters etc, aiya just, everything.
God heard me.
Take good care of yourself!
And don't keep keeping things tuh yourself.
-_-
Share it with someone.
Well, someone who truly cares, of cos.
And don't trust people too easily.
Think of everything from every, possible angle and perspective.
People aren't as simple as you think they are.
I'm always here..
And, sorry.

And...

Tuh you:
Idk if you'll think I'm faking it,
Alibaba-ing it or what, Idk.
But I've something tuh tell you.
Always remember.
You, are worthed it.
Don't be like how you were and kept saying you're not worthed it.
Live a happy life, and smile more.
Idk if it's right tuh still be willing tuh be here for you,
But I'm giving it a second shot of faith.
So.. Yeah. I'm here.
I hope I won't be wrong again this time.
And really thank you for your nags in th past..
Random texts asking me tuh eat and stuffs like this.
Along those few months.
Tgc.

---

I'M DONE.
Fwoah, damn long.
Heh.
Bye :D

I AM A HAPPY PERSON NOW!

And gna start studying this few days already.
Mum's gna plan everything for me and stuffs.
Hope things'll get better! :D

And names mentioned below,
MOTHER FUCKING MEET ME UP SOON.
I MISS YOU LIKE MAD.

EUNICE TAN SHI HUI.
KERIEN SOO KAI LING.
JOCELYN YEO XIN LING.
HAZEL TAN MEI CI.

4 OF YOU AR.
DON'T MEET ME SOMEMORE, I-Q-U.
Heh.

♥♥♥.

And, no Hazel.tmc hun, NO ZHIRONG this time round!
:D

History.

2010-08-27T21:26:00.005+08:00

Archers in your arches,
Raise your fingers for one last salute.
And bleed this skyline dry,
Your history is mine.

---

---

There's a choice tuh be made.
And I know what you'll choose,
Even before I ask you.
I can see through your mind,
Just by your words and actions.

---

Things are.... Idk how tuh describe.
Mmm..
Messed up?
Hahahaha.
I like leh, very exciting!!!
HEH.

---

Let's blog about happy stuffs!

THIS IS AWESOME.
And fuck pls, Kyle JI HOT, HAHAHA.
He's th one in brown and with a cap!! ♥

And anyway~

Went down tuh hawker at 2pm like tht.
Saw D on th bus, ji qiao yi xia, hahaha.
Went Ntuc with him.
Thn saw Aj and A.
Thn went over carpark find F and Z.

A and D went over hawker,
While 4 of us stayed at carpark stairs.

Alot things happened.
I jitao angry like, idk, LOL.
Wanted go find D take my phone back,
Thn go back tamp.
But end up D came up LOL.

Went library tuh chill.
Read and listen song etc.
Thn went out, awhile, went up block slack.
Thn z, f, f's friend?, ys, a came up.
Awhile, a and ys left tuh hawker.

Went down hawker afterwards, and A ate uh.
Thn talk cock etc and stuffs.
Thn H came, thn dk when, F and her friend went somewhere.
Wait for her until sun rise and set and rise and set and world end.
LOL.

Went over tuh block slack,
Thn whn she come back, head over ghimmoh.
Met B and C.
Slack until 8.50pm?
F, F's friend, H and Z left.
Left 5 of us, abccd uh.
Laughs.

9.10pm or something, all left.
Bused tuh cw, trained home.
Headed over tuh 824, smoked, got dinner.

Went home, stoned and went mad, ahahahhaa.
Didn't eat in th end, lol.
Slept at 1plus.
Climbed out of bed at 4plus 5.

Alibaba, ate long john, sent bel down, homed.

I feel like stoning forever.
I wna be a stone.
Medusa, pl0x.

Nothing matters more,

2010-08-26T01:06:00.005+08:00

I love you,
For everything you are.
And everything you are not.
For every smile you flash,
And every laughter you have.

---

Recently heard this song again.
Reminds me so much.
About p5 HMT class.
Yiming's incident.
Ji touching, I jitao cried whn I saw his post.
LOL. HAHAHA.

---

Oky!

21st August!

J came over tuh my house at 10.30pm.
Super zun ar th timing.
LOL.

Thn around 11pm,
Cabbed down tuh Changi airport t2 with J and mum.
Waited for sis tuh come out.
She cekark, come out only, chiong tuh DFS sweep vodka, HAHAHA!!!!

I wait until damn bored, felt like dancing, wtf. LOL.
After tht, went tuh eat Ya kun and chatted.
Hughug my sis, heh :D
She say my face shape change ._. J said tht too, wtf.

Ok, so went back home, thn stone etc.
Omfg my phone bill 108bucks.
:S

Ok thn spent th whole night at sis room till 6am.
With Kiki, Jun and sis, of cos.
They drank and got damn high, I laugh until, LOL.
Almost die.
HAHAHA.

Morning around 6.15am,
Went down for breakfast with sis and K, while J went home.
Thn K went home afterwards.

I went home, bathed, did th dishes, and finished a book.
Slept at 12pm.

Woke at I forgot what time.
And I forgot what I did.
Oh holy.
LOL.

Ok skip.

Monday... 23rd?

Went tuh eat with mum, sis and dad at cs.
Thn awhile, sis went tuh cut her hair,
Dad and mum went home.
I went over cw.
Slack etc, thn went home.
Jialat, no memory of anything.
LOL.

24th, woke at 3plus 4.
Texted D, thn went tuh prepare etc.
Keep soh-ing, delaying time, LOL.

Reached hawker at 7pm sharp.
Met B, D, H and J.
I went over another side talk on phone first.
Thn called C F and H over.

Went over sit and smoke with J.
Awhile, C F H came over.
Heh.
Th fun starts there.
Thanks tuh like, 15 hours or sleep,
Or rather 12 la, cuz I was awake from 4plus tuh 7am.
Limpeh was bloody hyper and started talking alot.
HEHEHEHE.
Fun fun fun!
LOL.

Chatted and high and everything la, ji nice only.
Heh!

Around 8plus, A came down after bathing.
Sit there talk and stuffs.
Thn 8plus, H left for Clementi too.
O:
Thn B and C left for home too.

9pm, everybody all go home, sian bo!
Bus-ed over cw with A D F H and J.
Waited for H and J's bus with them,
Thn went over W house area slack.

Met J, M, W and another guy, idk who ._.
Went over market and A ate.
Met another 1 or 2 guys, idk.

Chatted with F and stuffs.
Thn went over stairs smoke and chatted with A and F.

Went over table sit down.
And I start alot rubbish.
Jitao laugh until fucking tired.
HEH.

Bus-ed over tuh cw with A F J and M.
Sent F tuh train station, thn went tuh slack.

Talk, kena force tuh camwhore, etc.

I kena psycho-ed tuh buy cig -_-
Poor me.. Lol...

Alr bankrupt liao, -_-
End up camwhore and stuffs,
Delay time, my last train gone.
LOL.

Hohseh bo!!!

Called sis for help, heh.
Lucky she's back in sg omfg ._.

So, not gna eat until next week or buy cig,
Faster return sis money first lol.

Lend A my cig box and gave her 4 sticks tuh survive.
I'm so nice, love me not? LMAO.

Went koufu outside sit and relac.
Thn went over Tanglin halt area slack awhile.
A go up bathe, end up cannot come down -.-

So around 1plus 2, cabbed home from Tanglin halt.
Listened tuh Blind all th way.
Ah, madloves. (:

---

After all these time,
I never thought we'd be here,
Never thought we'd be here..
And my life for you, is blind..
But I couldn't make you see it.
Couldn't make you see it, tht I love you more than you'll ever know..
And part of me died, whn I let you go..

---

Ok.
Up till down, I post for 1 hour alr.
Dk wtf I doing also. HAHAHA.

Hold on while I see if there's any pictures tuh upload.
For entertainment...

Yes there is.

1 tht I'm gna regret my whole life.
LMAO.

Another one is random.
Took on... Monday???
Yeah.

Got th cui feeling... LOL.

This...

I'M SO GNA REGRET.
HAHAHAHAHHA FUCK IT LOL.

OKAY BYE LOLOL.

Iluma.

2010-08-21T18:00:00.004+08:00

'Cuz it's Satur-Saturday,
Ain't nobody here to take, eh, eh, eh~
'Cuz it's Satur- 'Cuz it's Satur-Saturday,
Everybody wants to play, eh, eh, eh~

I like to move it move it, dontcha like to lose it~
I like to do it, do it, I like to do it, do it!
I like to move it, move it, I'm about to lose it~
I like to do it, do it, people like to move it!

---

Hi.

21st August.
Woke at 6plus.
Nua etc, thn went down cut hair.
Omg my hair, LOL.
Ji weird now -_-
Thought of cutting behind short also.
Arbo ji weird, unequal :l
But cannot ar.... Mummy kill me. LOL.

T.T
Walao.
This hair hor, bloody hard tuh take photo.
And my eyes damn exposed.
Don't like -___-
Lol.

BUT STILL, I'M CUTE. LMAO.
( Sorry ar, brain spoilt :P )

Side.
( Never do anything tuh it. )
( Never straighten or apply things or style etc. )
( I secretly hope it looks better after managing ._. )
( LOL. T.T )

I ji miss my irritating fucking sideburn!!!

Hahahahaha.
Fuck it.
Forget it~
Hair will grow aye?! :D
Hohoho.

---

Bathed etc blabla and rushed out.
Bloody bus delay maximum, puborh -_-

Zunzun Janice cousin called.
Thn her boyf got carrrr ):
But he don't want fetch me over, HAHA.
Assh0lez ):

Ok so,
Trained over bugis afterwards.
Went over Iluma Sky met Arhjas, Joycelyn, Feodore and Nicholas.
And... 2 hamsters. LOL.

Stone awhile, went out smoke, thn went down eat.
I didn't eat. J too.

Finish etc abcdefg, paid,
Went out.
Sit there, chitchat abit, laugh abit.

A rat/mouse keep running pass J whn she's talking.
LMAO.
Everyone jitao keep laughing. LOL.
Around 11.50pm.
They all went on bus.
I walked over tuh train station.
Very relaxed, cuz last train tuh Pasir ris...
12plus thn end.
LOL.

Trained back tamp, bus-ed home.
I sit 1 round.
Ji scary.
Whole bus only got me after 740 there de bus stop :S
Heh.

Bathed, blablabla.
Thn yeahz.
Comped.

Lie on bed from.. Idk. 4am?
But I slept at 7.50am.
Lol.

Fell asleep on th phone ._.
I've never fell asleep on a phone chat.
First time.
Not really sleep la.
Just, 90% asleep? LOL.
(Y)

Slept, woke at 5plus.

C actually asked if I wna go play pool lol.
But I can't uh.

Gna go change sis' bedsheet,
Thn start unplugging her speakers, thn return tuh her,
Her bolster, chair, alibaba.
-_-
Mad tiring.
Her speakers, wire more than your headful of hair.
Cb.
LOL.
I'm so gna kope her speakers again whn she go Aust next year.
:D

Well, if I haven't get my set of speakers.
LOL.

Tonight gna cab over Airport with mum and Jun.
Fetch sissy!
Hehehehehehe.
Aww missmiss! ^^

Gtg~ Buhbye~

---

21st.
3rd.
None.

Shall not say much.

Hawker life.

2010-08-20T04:36:00.002+08:00

Hi.
Short post.

Er.
Went down tuh meet usual people.

Starting say meet cw, thn ok.
I at tiong, ask me go clementi.
Thn I reach liao, say go cw.
End up at cw, say ask me go hawker.
Tio gah ar!!

-.-

Reached, A and D fetched me.

Thn go hawker sit.
Arron and th rest there also.

Stone talk etc.
Jason came.
Until around evening,
Barry and Carabelle came.
Thn slack until at night.

Drank 1 cup, whole face red.
Cheebai LOL.
Th ultimate reason why Idw tuh drink.
Heh.
Thn, awhile ar,
Joey came.

Alibaba.
Everything.
Thn left for cw.
Go sky garden slack with A and F.

After tht trained home.
Went 824.
Jitao nua.

Go home, headache.
Slept form 3am till 7pm plus thn climb out of bed.
LOL.

Went down get stuffs for dad.
Wanted cut hair.
But hair salon closed -.- ccb.

Thn got myself food.
At 824 awhile, thn go home.

(:

Buhbye.

Past.

2010-08-18T03:04:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling how I felt.
I don't like this feeling.
I know I'm over everything.
But this pain still comes back tuh me,
Whn I see things.... Yeah..

Mad irritating...

---

Was looking..
And am still looking at my facebook status.
Older post.. Older post..
So long ago.

I saw quite.. Alot.
Most meant something..

Not quite in order, but it gets older as you scroll..
I think.

--

So if one day you need a shoulder,
Give me a text.
Just a text of 3 words, ' I need you '.
Tell me wherever you are,
&I'll fly over.
Wherever you are.
I might never be th one you love,
But I'll never stop being there for you.
B'cuz seeing you heartbroken,
Gives me heartaches, chestpain.
I'd never want you tuh cry, because you deserve tuh smile.

June 27 at 5:47am

---

If hugging you for a second'd let me die a second earlier,
I'd still hug you forever.
If being w you was wrong,
I'd rather not be right.
Even if it kills me just missing you,
I will give up my life in just missing you,
Watching out for you tuh be fine,
Watching you from afar blissfully living.
B'cuz you're my life.
If I've tuh live w/o you,
I'd rather not.
You get it, th most wonderful thing i'd ever met?
♥

June 27 at 5:45am

( This was so for you. )

---

If you could tell me what's going on in your mind,
And whether I'll stand a chance.
I'm gna die.

July 3 at 4:39am

---

I wna forget you.
I dwna remember you.
I wna smile again.
But everyday and night, you're in my mind.
How am I supposed tuh let go of you?
My heart's lika bitch, torturing itself now.
Every sentence about you tht I saw, it self-inflicts once.
And sums up pretty much, my heart's dying.

July 7 at 8:17pm

---

I wna see you leaning on th walls.
Lookin' intuh my eyes through my soul.
Listenin' tuh my heart, beatin' for you.
& hear me say,
'I love you everyday, baby.'

July 9 at 6:55pm

( So thinking of you whn I typed this -_- -.- )

---

Sometimes whn i'm out without MSN and Twitter,
I feel scared tht I'm not there whn you need me.
But whn I reached home, I realise you didn't look for me.
And tht's whn I 're-arranged' my thoughts, and realised,
if someone needs me, they'll call me up instead.
Or find ways intuh getting contact with me. So. Yea. Damnit.

June 26 at 1:28am

---

Someday you're gna leave silently, slowly ignoring me.
You're gna float away slowly, quietly.
Knowing I won't dare tuh contact you cuz I think I'm irritating,
You just leave, like this.
And we're over.
And this is happening, right now.

June 25 at 8:51pm

---

You're not my first, but you might be my last,
only if you give me 5 minutes tuh explain how I love you.

June 24 at 10:17pm

---

I could promise you a lifetime, but would you even give me 5 minutes?

June 23 at 11:51pm

---

:<
I want you :<

June 19 at 10:12pm

---

I like you 'cuz your smile is th sweetest I've ever seen.
I like your voice tht always gives me sweetdreams,
How you care & gets shy.
I love th way you say goodnight @ th end of every chat,
How we met,
How much i miss & love you,
How stupid you're not tuh get my hint,
How you always make me smile.
I love how special you're tuh make me cry w only a word.
I love you 'cuz you're who you're.
&I love how you broke my heart w/o knowing. (Y)

June 19 at 5:24pm

---

Something like tht.
Fb lag like crap cuz 2 months ago status.
LOL.

Kkkkbye!

---

But I don't feel anything.
Just, BORED AND WNA DO SOMETHINGGGGGGGGG.

Klsw's 16th birthday.

2010-08-18T00:04:00.006+08:00

Hi.
This post is specially dedicated tuh a pretty girl.
Cute girl.
Funny girl.
Anti social girl.
Fierce girl.
A white girl.
White like susu.
White like ghost.
White like geisha.
White like marlboro.
LMAO.

Koey, Lim Suwen.

Why this post?
Idk too.
I did one for her last year,
So might as well do this year's too? (((:

Happy birthday! :D
May all your wishes come true,
And be happpyyyy!

Th rest, sms tell you alr.

I'm always here, yeah? (:
And also,
Wna thank you for being there all th time whn I texted you.
Like whn I am sad, emo, etc.
Thanks for bothering tuh cheer me up,
Or at least advice,
And tell me tuh look on th brighter side,
Or like encourage me, etc.

Have never expected us both tuh turn out this way!
Hahaha.
Always thought we'll just be 2 hi bye kinda friend..
Like, after not slacking, etc.
Heh.

And ar,
You say see me soon de hor!!
I will book you soon!!
Don't reject, arbo I will cry, HAHA.

Enjoy your celebrations.
^^

♥ Love die you liao.
(:

- LhyClare. :D

Ton.

2010-08-17T01:56:00.005+08:00

Firstly,
I'm gna be very random.

Most people who know me well,
Knows tht I am super in love with crosses and skulls.
Those... Kinda stuffs la.
Yeah.
So...

I WNA BUY EVERYTHING THT HAS SKULLS AND CROSSES.
If only I had th money ):
Mad chio earringz, necklace, etc.
OMG.....
T.T

Alright.
End of random rubbish :P

---

Here's a mad random shot few days back.
2 days, I guess.

---

Okydoky,
Gna end it quick.

Went out tuh meet Arhjas after she wakes.
Supposedly going for YOG fireworks with th rest.
But yeah, woke late :S.
LOL.

Went over Boonkeng meet Arhjas, Joycelyn, Jaslin and ZhengJie.
Went coffee shop and A ate.
Jo ordered like, popiah, fries, and drinks.
Yeah.

Thn awhile, went behind slack awhile.

Anw so, Darren called.
Ask if we wna ton.

I didn't wanted tuh la..
End up kena psycho etc.
Thn I dumb, go up bus on my own accord.
Wtf.

Went over Holland, D house area.
Waited for Carabelle, Barry and Andy(?) Dk how spell Lol. tuh reach.
Went over busstop.
Bus-ed over tuh like.. Idk. Jurong? LOL.

Thn walked from Jurong all th way tuh boonlay tuh find Arron.
Waaa, mad tiring.
LOL.

Walkwalkwalk, thn went shell station buy drinks and food.
D got us alot snacks and stuffs.
Enough tuh last through out th journey.
LOL.

Thn walk, stop abit etc.

Thn start pua stunt alr.

Use $2 puay cab over tuh Boonlay.
5 person somemore.

Keep kena reject.
Damn joke, we need squat down and act tired whn got cab.
HAHAHAHAHA.

Finally, thn got 1 malay uncle, ji kind!!
Send us over tuh boonlay without accepting our money.
Omg please.
Mad thankful!!!

Reach liao, ji boring.
Thn got this...
Toilet bowl -.-
At voiddeck rubbish dump area.
D and A public toilet sia.
I laugh until, LOLOL.

Slack and wait for Arron come down.
They very free ar.
Go alot carpark walk.
Me and Andy kua zui O:

Thn got this group of... say. 7?
All Kawasaki I think.

Jitao purposely VROOOOOOM damn loud.
Wth.
At 2plus 3 midnight?
-.-

K thn went over macs area slack.
This, 3/4 steps de curb place.
All sit down, eat snacks and drink, talk cock etc.
Share stories and stuffs.
Until around 4.30 or something.
Went toilet together, thn go Macs sit.

Talk until around.. Idk.
5.20+?

I cab back.
Thn zao cab.
-_-
Almost $40 -.-
Sorry uncle ):

Make him uturn once at TP,
Thn go in 2 wrong carpark, cuz we dk which carpark stop in front of 7-11 :l

Thn finally go in correct de.
Thn I pua stunt.
Say go in take money pay.
End up walk out from back door, run home. LOL..
Back door actually was locked :l
But I ask th person open :x
LOL. Thanks dude.

Thn yeah.
Homed, bathed etc.
Phone with Aj awhile, told her what happened, thn go sleep.

Tht's about it eh.

---

I found this.
A year plus ago alr.
Lol.
Wtf pls, hahaha.

Bye.

Excruciating pain.

2010-08-14T17:50:00.003+08:00

I'm ready to fall.
I'm ready to crawl on my knees, to know it all.
I'm ready to heal.
I'm ready to feel..
Take me there.

Everybody wears a mask whn we go out.
Of course we do enjoy time with our friends.
We laugh at nonsense.
We crack jokes.
We fool and play around.
All we basically do, is have fun.
We laugh our days off and part each other whn night falls.
Everyone, will leave with a smile.

But everytime, whn we're at home,
In our rooms, in th dark.
We're not happy at all.
We just don't show it.
We basically just, hide it.

We may be nonsensical.
We may do rubbish.
We may be noisy.
We may be.. Anything.

But really,
Don't judge us from what we do, or say.
We're not who you think we are.

Just like everyone else.
We all wear a mask, everyday.

---

'Only now thn I realised, all of us who're always laughing and playing together.. None of us are happy..'

---

Sometimes I just..
Tried tuh be happy.
I really tried.. ._.
But I seem tuh, just.. Fail?
I just realised I don't look happy at all?
Even if I'm laughing, being hyper..

Even whn I smile whn I'm talking about th things tht's hurting me,
Looking at what's killing me, but I still smile.
I still laugh at it.
I smile at it.
But idk why, tht smile's kinda awkward.

I .. Am a mother fucking vagina .
-.-

Hawtstuffs.
Mad awesome voice of Bill Kaulitz.
Madloves.
♥

---

Ich kann dich für immer lieben.

---

Nothing's in there.
Nobody's in there.
I feel nothing in there.
Not happy.
Not sad.
Not angry.
Not .. Anything.
I can't feel, anything.
It feels empty there.
Like I lost all my emotions.
My heart and soul.
It feels so numbed,
Yet so painful..

---

Sometimes, I have no idea why.
I go out of control and flare up.
For no reason.
I can't control it too..
Idk what's happening tuh me..
Whatever it is.

I will live every minute, trying tuh breathe.

---

Love,
Was almost th whole universe tuh me.
Now, it's nothing, but a cruel joke.
And I am, th joke.

---

I'm alright.
I'm fine.
It doesn't hurt all th time.
It only does whn I breathe and am alive.
I'm fine.

Fallforyou,

2010-08-14T02:36:00.004+08:00

Zoom intuh me,
Whn you can't breathe,
I will be there.
I love you.

Hi.

Woke at... I forgot what time.

Prepared etc.
Went down cw.
I was th last tuh reach, SOWEEEEE.

Met A, B, C, F, H and Z outside Koufu.
Walked over tuh hawker.

Thn went intuh this..
Idk what restaurant place.
Met quite afew other guys?

Thn they ate, etc.
I was hyper -.-
So keep deesiao uncle.
I want his loveeee, etc, whn he ask what we want drink.
He damn deesiao, madloves.

Went over outside, everyone started drinking.
I didn't drink, heh.

There was ... Alot guys.
LOL.

Er, I only know.. Jason? Nicholas? Gabriel? Uh, th rest dk.
Darren was there also.
Alot la alamak.
There was 19 of us at night.
Uh.
Names I know are....
Me, Arhjas, Zoe, Carabelle, HuiPing, Barry, Darren, Nicholas, Farah.
Feodore, Jason, Gabriel, Arron.
Th rest Idk/forget name, LOL.
:S

Thn drink, talk cock etc la.

Thn went over another side, they settle problem,
We see show -.-
Awhile, halfway go back sit LOL.

At night, sian alr,
Thn go Doraemon slack.
Did alot rubbish.

Arhjas make until I got 1 big orhceh+bloodclot at my right triceps.
Kns.
ZZZ.

Z went off at 8plus.

Awhile, went down for dinner.
Eat, etc.
H went off during dinner.

Wa, Jason vomit like merlion -.-
LOL.

Ate 1 maximum small bowl of sharkfin,
And abit chicken.

Thn went off tuh kopitiam behind.
Left around 10.
Bused with F and another guy friend of hers.

Trained back, go 824.
Aunty gave me chiong ang.
Smoke halfway, I got th very strong feeling got mata.
Thn awhile, got white car park behind.
Thn I turn behind, only saw is white, so nv care.
But I hide cig.
Thn end up?

3 police walk in front of me, scan me -.-
Thn walk intuh 824.
WA I HENG BODOH.
Sit afew more seconds, thn walk out, cross road, walk home.
LOL.

So I'm homed now.

Had a nice day afterall?
But afew unpleasant things happened? -_-

Lol.

Zzzz.
Ordered around 20 bottles tuhday sia.
Siao ginnas LOL.
Quite afew seh in th end also -.-
Drinkdrinkdrink tah, laughs.

Alright, shall get going.
Bye.

---

Moodless.
Something strucked me.
I'm very, very, sad.
But no point telling anyone.
(:

---

See th world behind my wall.

Zoom into me.

2010-08-12T20:43:00.004+08:00

Keep screamin',
Until your emptiness fades away.

Is there anybody out there walking alone?
Is there anybody out there out in the cold?
Wrong heartbeats,
Lost in the crowd

Is there anybody shouting what no one can hear?
Is there anybody drowning hold down by their fear?
I feel you, don't look away

Zoom into me
Zoom into me
I know you're scared
When you can't breathe, I will be there
Zoom into me

Is there anybody laughing to kill the pain?
Is there anybody screaming the silence away?
Just open your jaded eyes

Zoom into me
Zoom into me
I know you're scared
When you can't breathe, i will be there
Zoom into me

come closer and closer...

When you can't breathe,I will be there
Zoom into me

Zoom into me
Zoom into me
When the world cuts your soul into pieces and you start to bleed

When you can't breathe,I will be there
Zoom into me

---

I climbed out of bed at 6pm.
I slept at 3am plus.
Lol.
And I woke up tuh th worst thing ever.

All th pain tht I've been trying tuh leave behind..
All those memories and thoughts,
Tht I hid deep down and hope tuh forget of,
Are all back.
Attacking me, all at once.
I'm dying, fading..

Confused.

And I don't feel anything anymore.
There's nothing in my head.
Nothing in my mind.
Nothing's going on.
Nothing.

My mind is blank,
My heart is empty.
My laughters are hollow,
My smiles are awkward.
My tears are dried up,
My brain is screwed up.
My blood is frozen.
My veins stopped pulsing.
My breaths are slow,
My footsteps are heavy.
My eyes are jaded..

This pain is too overwhelming,
Th day has come.
Th day I'll be forced tuh decide and sort myself up..
I don't fucking know!!!!!!
-'- ...

I'm fading.

---

I'm trying to tell you
I'm trying to know you
I'm dying to show you
Fighting to get you

Soon as you got me
You go and drop me
It's cruel when you burn me
I love how you hurt me

Oh no, I'll never let you go
Oh no, I hate that I need you so

It's not what you said
It's the way you say it
It's not what you did
It's the way you do it
Sick and tired of needing your affection
I chose to be lonely than live without your
Attention

I scatch your sweet name
Right into my skin
You left me bleeding
But I couldn't give in

I swallowed all the poison to get infected
Give back my heart that you body rejected

Oh no, I'll never let you go
Oh no, I hate that I need you so

It's not what you said
It's the way you say it
It's not what you did
It's the way you do it
Sick and tired of needing your affection
I chose to be lonely than live without your
Attention

I'm standing in the pain
That's smothering me
It's more becoming my own blood
Why can't you see?
That I'm starving for your love
And I need attention
Or I'm gonna die

It's not what you said
It's the way you say it
It's not what you did
It's the way you do it
Sick and tired of needing your affection
I chose to be lonely than live without your
Attention

---

It's cruel when you burn me,
I love how you hurt me.

---

And I think of you whn I listen tuh this song.
Esp whn it's at th..
'Let's go all th way tonight, no regrets, just love' part ._.

Favourite part is:

I'ma get your heart racing,
In my skin-tight jeans~
Be your teenage dream tonight~

Let you put your hands on me,
In my skin-tight jeans,
Be your teenage dream tonight..

---

Tht pair of beautiful eyes,
They got my heart racing all th time.
Let's go all th way tonight.
No regrets, just Love, baby.
So be my teenage dream.
Just you and me, tonight.
I promise I will love you right,
I will hold you tight.

---

HUAT AR.

2010-08-12T00:51:00.001+08:00

God bless,
HUAT ARRRRRR ALL GODS.

Hi ps late post.
Drafted on o9o81o.
But posted on 12o81o.
Heh.

---

Hi.
Woke at 4plus.
Went tuh prepare go out at 5pm.
Kena psycho tuh go out lol.

Went out at 7pm.
Went over Raffles station meet Carabelle, Huiping, Yanling and another girl.
Thn went up meet Arhjas Zoe Darren and Nigel.
Went tuh find toilet? LMAO.

Awhile, got fireworks.
Ai wan x10.
See through reflection for most of them -.-
LMAO.
Hot like cbk -_-

Keep see until matachia.
Irritating -_-

Walk over Clarke Quay, A and D ate cup noodles?
Thn Barry came.
MOTHER FUCKING FUNNY.
He brought this 2 wig.
Like those bao zhar tou de wig, black and white.
Afro maximum.

D B N Z go wear thn fucking funny la!!!
D jitao ahgua max.
LMAO.

Laugh etc, thn went over tuh Clementi by bus.
I at busstop kena bully ._.
This few days my nehneh keep kena attacked.
I need a metal bra.
Any intros? ):

Anw so,
Listen song etc, moodswing ._. Lol.

Reached, go usual place slack.
Thn Z went off at 11pm.
Slacked etc.
Thn got police screened -_-
Smljfuckfuck.

A and Me jitao stuff cig intuh boxer, GAOWHEY SIAK.
LOL.

D kena :l

Thn went off.
106 tuh ghimmoh, thn sent B and C home, thn H home.
Thn walked out, cabbed.
Cabbed A and D back home, and cabbed home.
Ccb, cab fare jitao 25 bucks.
Omg.

Went home, slept.

Th nexy day,
Went down meet A at 4th storey.
Thn went down Purmei meet Z, Wilson, Joycelyn.
Thn Michelle came down.

Went over coffee shop eat, thn slack at.. Some..
Open space park LOL.
Farah came over for awhile, talk etc.
Thn she went off.
Thn Joycelyn went off.. In anger? ._.

So, left us, 5.
But in 2 groups ._.
A, Z and me.
W and M.
Thn do alot rubbish..
I kena bully ._. ..
Lol.

Thn Z went off.

Awhile, sent W go take bus, thn slack with A and M.
Around 10.40pm, left.

Stupid A want climb over th barrier.
I don't dare HAHAHA.
Thn I make until my left palm.
Until now still pain -.-
ZZZZ.

Bused with her, halfway her papa want fetch her.
So she went down bus.

I went down at next stop, took 147 tuh Cw station.
Trained back home.

Tuhday woke up at 2pm something.
Prepared etc.
Went over cw meet A, Z, F and another girl? ._.
Slack awhile, F and th girl went off.
Left 3 of us T.T
Very kelian.
LOL.
I lightbulb maximum ward siak!! LOL.

Thn Darren and idk-who came up o.o
Awhile, whn want take lift go down, Barry and Carabelle came up.
LOL.

All went down, thn bus-ed over tuh Clementi.
Ah, moodswing, kanasaibo.

Thn went Ananas, A ate.
B went up for max tune, thn lan.
After eating, all went up arcade.
Thn Jason came.

After arcade, went over sportshall find Nigel.
Watch him train boxing until end, thn all went back.
B C went off.
Thn we go inter wait bus.

N board his bus.

A B C D and me, board 147.
B C alighted, thn D, thn A and me.

Trained back home.
Took 291, went 824, bought food, homed.
Everyone ask me why so long never go down LOL.
(Y)
Go home, bathed, etc.
Thn jitao cannot finish my food.
Almost half packet, wna puke die me alr
PEKCEK.

K, tht's all.

BYEBYE.

Memories.

2010-08-11T15:02:00.003+08:00

Memories are irreplaceable.

It's good in a way.
It gets whatever used tuh be together, back together.

But it can get whatever tht used tuh be together, but seperated for good reasons,
Back together for more sufferings.

Ohwells.
Whatever.

---

This obsession is getting out of my control.
I can't controllllll -'-
Fml.

---

Gna blog soon.
No time ar :l

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I fucking hate it whn I smile at something tht's hurting me.
-'- FUCK IT.

Automatic.

2010-08-09T04:05:00.003+08:00

It's automatic,
Whn you say things'll get better,
But they never..

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Why can't we make this darkness feel like home?

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Hi.
Woke @ 2pm plus.
Prepare tuh go out @ 3pm.
Left house @ 5pm.

Went over Clementi.
Met Darren and Nigel.
Thn Arhjas came over with Zoe.
Slacked and laugh, talk cock etc @ LJS behind.

Z and D was being fucking funny and retarded.
I jitao LAUGH NON STOP.
HAHA.

Anyway forgot tuh mention.
TRAIN RIDE WAS TH WORSE EVER.
AIRCON GOT ON LIKE NEVER ON :@
K forget it -.-

Went over voiddeck slack.
Barry and Carabelle thn came.
Slacked, talk rubbish blablablablabla.
Alot cock ar, laughs.

Anyway. Z did something tht shocked th shit outta me -.-
And stupid A still shouted ' AHH SHE PAISEH LIAO, FACE RED '.
-.-

Until around 8 something, N went home.

Thn awhile later, A and me sent Z over tuh train station.
Bought drinks for B and Z bought sweeet~
She gave me and A 1 each, heh.
A bought seaweed & greentea.
(Y) Professional pig, LMAO JOKING.

Went back, slack blablabla.
Thn B and C went tuh buy prata.
End up everyone was eating, well, except me.
Hahaha.

Awhile later, called N down again.
Thn bused 105.
B and C alighted first, thn followed by D.
Went over Commonwealth usual place with A and N.
Slacked like we always do and did rubbish, LMAO.

Halfway D came down again, stupid, pua stunt kena exposed HAHA.
Slack until 11.30pm.
Everyone left.

Trained home, bused home, and I'm homed.
HAHAHA.

Gna meet EuniceTSH BeeeBeeeBeeeloved tomorrow before going out.
I so lazy go out tomorrow!!!
I fucking need sleep siak!! LOL.
Everyday not enough sleep T.T

Tomorrow going what, Marina or whatever dk where, see fireworks.
SMLJ LOL.
I told D I will call him up tomorrow and say
' DARREN!!! I SEEING FIREWORKS!!! ON TV !! '
HAHAHA.

Thn maybe tonning?
Idk ar. Laughs.

Alright, I'm mad shit tired!!
GOODNIGHT SOON.

Anyway this is what happens whn we're over our limit of boredness.
-____-

HAHAHA.
Bohliao bo! LMAO.

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I used tuh love my neck.
But now I don't )):
'Cuz it harmed me tuhday.
):
Make me paiseh in public ):
HAHAHA.
But what happened jitao was fun and funny.
(Y)
I love!

Say hi tuh my neck.

And say hi tuh Arhjas Twentysix Hasnowatermelonboobs.
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA FUCKK!!!!
LOLOLOLOL!!!!
I madloves tht name LMAOLMAOLMAO.

Oky, bye!

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I have an obsession, with you.

Smiles.

2010-08-08T01:56:00.009+08:00

If I had you,
Money, fame & fortune,
They never could compete.

Dozed off @ 7am plus yesterday.
Woke at... I forgot.
Keep wake and sleep lol.

Went tuh prepare at 2plus in th noon.
Thn went over tuh Clementi.
Went arcade meet Arhjas Barry Carabelle Darren Huiping & another guy?

D was fucking funny!!!!
He got these... Plastic red balls for kids,
Thn he put at his ... LOL... Ok. ~~Nipples~~, LOL.
Under his shirt.
Thn he got like, boobs.
LMAO.

While walking tuh Clementi bus interchange,
Thn D shocked this old lady, and everyone LAUGHED OUT LOUD.
Stupid A jitao stopped walking and banged intuh me -.-
My ~~vagina~~ area jitao PAIN. LOL.
My foot got stepped on by her -___-

Thn D deesiaoed some... Idk, guy?
Thn everyone got ang hun from him.
All smoke abit, THROW.
Not nice at all, LOL.

Waited for Zoe @ Interchange.
Thn bus-ed over tuh Vivo.
Went toilet, thn KFC, everyone ate.
I drank.

Rubbish happened and things got... Sour -___-
Sibeh xiasuay, BUAYTAHAN.
I jitao hid my face in my bag. LOL.
I stuffed my face intuh my bag. Laughs.

Left Kfc and split intuh 2 groups.
B C H went tuh..... IDK WHERE.
A D Z and me went sky park slack.

Talked awhile, until around 8.39pm? ( Oh I still remember th time LOL. )
A sent Z over.
Chatted with D thn A came back.
Slacked etc, went back tuh CW, D went home.
Met Nigel and slacked until 11.50am.

A was being SIEH HYPER LIKE WTFFFF.
I jitao shocked shit. LOL.
N was bored and he kept taking his shirt off and putting it back on.
Doing stupid exercises and we laughed like dumb idiots.

Left at 11.50pm.
Went up for last train.
I WAS FREEEEEEEEEEEEZING ON TH TRAIN, -_-

Reached inter, went over 293.
OH, LAST BUS JUST TURNED IN.
Mad lucky!!!
Heh.

Bused home, homed.
Bathed, and I'm here.
And limpeh is hungry.
24 hours never eat.
Everytime forget eat, :@
LOL.

Had a great day.
And I realised something...
Something so, unexpected. LOL....

K nothing.
LOL.
Bye~ :D

Mad tired -_-

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请告诉她我不爱她,
笑着难过自我惩罚.
想终止这一切挣扎,
狠了心说真心谎话.
别告诉她我还想她.
恨总比爱容易放下.
当泪水堵住了胸口,
就让沉默来代替所有回答.

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I never thought tht I'd be happy with this ending.
I'm shocked with myself too.
But after tuhday, I'm quite sure tht it's th best.
Th best anything can ever turn out tuh be.
Th mad sweet and happy smiles I saw,
On th faces of th both of you.
It felt like th best damn thing ever.
Though it hurts and I almost dropped afew tears,
But I held it back, and I turned out happy, very.
I tried tuh accept it and smile it through.
And I succeedded, I guess.
It seemed like my happiness comes from th both of you.
Neither way wouldn't have been right..
It would've always been wrong.
But now it seems all fine and awesome.
Super satisfied with it, and I'm really happy.

And, oh well.
I'll always be there.
One tht comes, step intuh your life,
Leave billions of footprints on it,
Wiping tears off your faces.
I won't shit in your life and walk out,
Leaving it tuh you tuh clean it up.

I am not th sort tht comes and go.
Not th kind tht will say I love you if I don't.
My feelings don't fly around like roller coaster rides.
Definitely not th type tht breaks promises.

In short,
I am always there.
Despite whatever shit happens.
Maybe drifted apart, but always remember tht I'm still here.
Things may turn out ugly, but I'll always love those memories.
Things may turn sour, but I'll always miss those days.

Well, maybe I won't be there anymore whn you push me away?
I can't stay if you wna push me away, yea?
(:

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There's no real love in you.

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Always remember tht I'm not anyone you've met.
I, am me.

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I still love th both of you.
Obsession + Love. LOL.
Fuck my heart seriously, lmao.

And Idk whether I'd ever get over th both of you.
Feelings, is th most complicated thing in life.

I won't bother forcing myself tuh forget, get over.
Laughs.
I am stupid, but who cares~ :D

It's fine.

2010-08-07T02:30:00.003+08:00

It's over,
I made every second count.

Whn I'm with you,
I'll make every second count,
'Cuz I miss you, whnever you're not around.

Tell me,
How do I live with a broken heart,
And facing th reason for being broken, everyday?
Oh yea, by numbing my senses and sealing my feelings off.

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Went over tuh Clementi tuhday.
Reached at around 6.
I was stupid, or crazy, idk.
I wore a jacket whn th weather was mad hot.
-.-

Met Farah and Arhjas.
Went some place first,
Thn sky garden slack etc alot stuffs ar, go everywhere. -.-
Tired.

Went Anana's at 8 something.
F left.
Waited for Carabelle and Huiping.

A ate and Nigel came.
Went tuh slack.
Awhile, C and Hp went ghim moh.
Slacked with C and A at commonwealth till 11.40pm+.
Trained homed, bused home.

Stone at stairs until dk what time la,
Went home, bathe, and I'm here now.

And these 2 days keep getting cuts and bruises...
WHICH IDK CAME FROM WHERE.
Wtf pl0x.
-.-

Didn't eat for 27 hours.
No appetite -.-
Now I open mouth like wna murder me like tht.
LMAO.
Kthxbye.

Tht should be me.

2010-08-06T03:40:00.004+08:00

Tht should be me,
Holding your hands.

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Went down Commonwealth tuhday.
Was regretting my decision of going down whn I'm otw..
LOL.
Dumbfuck ehhh!!!
Hahaha.

Was feeling sieh weird and scared -.-
Kns.
ZZZ.
Ok so,

Met....
Arhjas, Zoe, Carabelle, Darren, Farah, Wilson, Michelle, and others.
Met them at Koufu.

Went up carpark with F and C.
I forgot if D came up with us or afterwards.
LOL.
Waited for Weipeng at 4th storey.

Stone etc, awhile, went over tuh Clementi with F C WP and D.
Wp left. Met B A N etc for awhile, thn B followed.
Stone around etc, I forgot at where, met Nigel.
Thn slack around, C B left.
Went over Jason's house with F N D.
N left, thn around 6.30 left J's house.

Went over commonwealth.
Met A, thn stone awhile, C B came.
Slack awhile, A D needed tuh go Safra for kbox meet Kimjio?
Wanted tuh go safra with them with C B, but bus jitao damn long.

So left with C B, trained back tamp alone.

Was super screwed up.
I don't even know what I was doing.
I had so many things in my mind, it could've exploded anytime.
-_-

Managed tuh control myself and kept myself clean off, yayyy.

Bus-ed back, saw B sis, K, P, WH at busstop.

Homed, and I felt like I was transparent x1325702357203587293580?
Lol.

Wasn't feeling well and stuffs la.
Fuckup maximum.

Pekcek until I wna kill people :@
And idky my left middle knuckle like got bloodclot? ._.
Thn right middle knuckle got a cut? And clot.
Wtf man.
Where did I get them -_-

Had cold bath and almost drowned, HAHAHAHA.

Ate at almost 12am.
Dozed off for afew minutes, hehehehh.
I'm here now at 3.49am.

I should sleep.
Maybe going out tomorrow.
But before I do, DO TH DISHES.

Tuition @ 11am tomorrow man!!!
Idk if I'm supposed tuh join... o.o LOL.

And mum's not angry at me anymore, HOHYEZZZ.

Alrighty, BYE!

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I sorted myself out.
I know who I want, I know who I love.
I think.
LOL.

Ohwell, whatever.
Whoever it is tht I love,
Doesn't matter.
Cuz I'm not supposed tuh choose?
So I shall just let it be, until whn th right time comes,
It'll be sorted out even if I don't want tuh.
Heh.

Goodbye.

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Missing video for Gaga's full interview with jonathan ross.
MAD JOKE.